Sunday, January 31, 2010

Day 55.

Hi everyone,

After yesterday's post, I started thinking about how sometimes the scale doesn't always tell the truth. I'm not saying that it's a liar, but the scale definitely does not tell the whole story. For example, it doesn't tell you that I've lost 2 inches in my hips in the last 2 weeks, or a half inch in my waist. It doesn't tell you that those damned abdominal sections at the end of every single Firm tape are getting slightly easier for me to do. It doesn't tell you that I am able to pyramid the weights up during certain Firm routines. It doesn't tell you that I have more energy and most of my cravings for junk are pretty much done and gone. The scale does NOT tell you everything.

Today my best friend in the whole world took me out for a belated birthday meal. I ordered a cheesy pasta dish, and then immediately divided it in half as soon as it got to our table. I ignored the uneaten half all afternoon. I also ordered some steamed veggies on the side. The waitress brought the obligatory bread basket to our table when our food arrived, so we both didn't even touch it. What was the point? We wanted to eat our food, not the bread. Wendy got some eggs Benedict with hash browns. Even though I only had half my plate, I was very satisfied, and not sick to my stomach. I felt good about the choices I made today.

Before I met Wendy, I knew I had to pack in a really good workout. I started with The Firm Total Body Time Crunch with Rebekah Sturkie. I can't even remember the last time I did that workout, which is why I chose to do it today. And yes, I completed the ab section also! Then, I decided to do Zumba Express, which brought my calorie burn up to 576 calories. I was happy with that number. I knew I had to plan & prepare ahead because I was going out to eat, so a high calorie burning workout was definitely in the cards.

I thought about getting a mani & pedi today after lunch, but decided against it. I was getting a headache, and I still needed to run to the drugstore and pick up a few things. It's funny because I didn't even think about that extra serving of cheesy pasta in the passenger seat next to me. It just didn't interest me. It was like, I ate it, I had my fill & satisfied my craving, and then I was done. I've come a long way baby!

I can't believe the weekend is over already. Another work week begins tomorrow. Oh joy. Well, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Day 54.

Hi everyone,

Today was WI day at WW, and here's the result. Are you ready??????

I stayed exactly the same.

Yup, no weight gain, but no weight loss either. I am exactly at 239.4. Same as last week.

Well, there are a couple of ways to look at this. I didn't lose any weight. But at least I didn't gain any weight. If I had gotten on that scale, and was up - even 0.2 - I would've been absolutely devastated. That would have probably started a dangerous downward spiral with food today. But I chose to look at it a different way. Staying the same isn't a welcome outcome most of the time, but considering my episode with crackers & cheese last Sunday, I'm ok with it. Would I have liked a loss, no matter how small? You bet. But it didn't happen, I can't control it, so it's better to just focus on this coming week and move on as soon as possible.

I do have some really good news though. Before I went to WI, I decided to take some body measurements. I had taken some 2 weeks ago for the first time a really long time, and I've decided to measure myself every two weeks from now on. As I get closer to goal, and as I lose more weight, I'll take measurements once a month. I am happy to report that even though I didn't lost any weight this week, in the last 2 weeks, I have lost 6 inches of FAT from my body!!! I've lost 2 inches in my hips, which I'm really happy about, because I have what I call "child-bearing hips." How's that for a NSV??? (Non Scale Victory for you non-Weight Watchers peeps.)

I came back from WI feeling the need to accomplish something. So I worked out because I honestly did not know what else to do. I could've worked on my thesis, but I didn't feel like it. Yikes. At some point, I need to work on that thing. The time is soon. Don't you worry! I decided on doing The Firm Bootcamp Maximum Calorie Burn with Alison Davis. And yes, I even did the ab section at the end! I hadn't done that workout in a really long time, so I decided to dust it off and put it in my DVD player. I finished the workout at about 387 calories burned, but I jumped & hopped around for a bit to reach the 400 mark. I ended burning 405 calories, and I'm happy with that. I sweated a lot, and even managed to some - not all - of the advanced moves. I probably would've gotten my calorie burn up way more than I did, but its ok. I'm ok with that, too.

I forgot to mention that I signed up for a 4 mile run for Feb. 14 (Valentine's Day). I haven't run 4 miles in a really, really long time, and I'm a little nervous about it, but sod it, I'm gonna do it! I'll be huffing & puffing my way through it, but that's not the point. The point is to complete the course and be able to say that I did it. I know I'll be sore as all hell afterward, but it's a good kind of sore. I'm gonna do it, no matter what! I can't wait. It'll be fun, in a corny way! LOL. I have to remember to get there early. Last time I ran a 5K, I was one of the last ones to get there, and I was rushing to get my number and my tracking thingy.

OK, with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Day 53.

Hi everyone,

Since today is my last chance workout and tomorrow is my WI day, I figured I should probably go super duper hardcore with the workout. When I weighed myself this morning, I was the same weight as last Saturday, which means I took off all the water weight, but I still haven't lost any weight this week either. Sigh. It's ok though, I acknowledge that I made a bad decision and I have to deal with the consequences.

But that doesn't mean I should just give up the fight. Oh no, I'm fighting & clawing my way through not only this week, but this journey as well. When you want something bad enough, you'll do just about anything to get it. Ain't that the truth.

My abs are pretty sore from my Ab Roller workout last night. I just had to cough and I felt it in my abs. Yup, who woulda thunk?

OK, let's talk about the workout. I knew when I saw that number this morning that this afternoon had to be the workout to end all workouts. I knew I had to burn a ton of calories and be very careful with my sodium intake today. I did 3 DVD workouts today. I started with Step Reebok the Video with Gin Miller. A classic and a favorite. Then I moved onto The Firm Total Body Toner with Allie Del Rio. In between workouts, I would just step on my step. I did that for about 10 minutes to get my calorie burn up, and now I'm feeling it in my thighs a lot. I will be sore tomorrow, I can just feel it. My legs will be feeling it tomorrow. Then finally, I did PowerFit Cardio with Stephanie Huckabee. I burned - are you ready for this? - 1,051 calories! Yup, I was soaked in sweat, I was tired, and I was already starting to feel sore. I had to push myself, I just had to. Even if I lose just 0.4 or something, it will be worth it. It will be worth it because now I know I can push myself, push my body to limits that I had never imagined before. And it's a great feeling people, it really is!

OK, I promise this weekend I will post some pictures, no matter how bad I think they look. In order for me to be totally honest, the pictures have to go up. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Day 52.

Hi there everyone,

Still smooth sailing. I stayed completely on program today, and did not go over my points at all. What a relief. This journey can be simple if you do a couple of things - prepare & plan ahead. I like how I've been feeling. I feel in completely in control. I do not feel as if food is controlling me, and for a long time, that's exactly how it was. Sad, but it's the absolute truth. For more years than I want to remember, I let food rule my life. And I truly believe, with all my heart, that I am finally past that stage of my life. I need to be past that stage in order for me to move forward with my life.

This week at Weight Watchers, the challenge was to get in at least 10 minutes of some kind of activity every single day. Since today was my scheduled rest day, I decided to do my old school Ab Roller Plus workout tape, which is 10 minutes long. I figured that was a good compromise. Today was my first time in like 7 or 8 years that I was able to do the whole tape. My abs hurt during that workout! LOL. But it was a good kind of hurt, you know. I wonder if my abs will be sore tomorrow. If you've read my blog, you know that working my abs is the bane of my existence, simply because my midsection is such a disaster. But that's what years of abusing food will do to your body, unfortunately. All we can do is try to get healthy and leaner.

This is going to be a short blog since I don't have all that much to talk about. I do want to mention one thing before I call it a night though. Sean Anderson, who has completely transformed himself and his body, was featured in a newspaper article in his home state of Oklahoma. Please read his blog if you have a minute. You can find his blog here:

Ok, now I am going to wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Day 51.

Hi everyone,

Today was a great day. As long as I stick to program, write everything in my journal, and NOT have any episodes, I'll be fine. Am I sounding like a broken record again? I'm sorry, I promise I'll try to steer clear of that in the future.

This week, I have been trying very hard not to go over my daily points, (I get 29 a day) but today I went over by a point. It's not a big deal so I'm not going to stress out about it. Ever since Sunday though, I have been very vigilant and very careful about my points. The next 2 days I will stay within my points.

OK - so let's talk about the workout. I went all out today, super hardcore. I wanted to push my calorie burn as high as possible. I started with PowerFit Cardio with Stephanie Huckabee. That little workout has quickly become one of my favorites, a definite go-to workout DVD. I debated about which Firm DVD to use, whether I should use the TransFirmer, or one that didn't use it. So I went with Ultimate Calorie Blaster, again with Stephanie. I had to huff & puff my way through it, though. Those TransFirmer climbs are really, really tough! And there are 2 tall box climb sequences, which made my heart rate really skyrocket. I think it maxed out at 180, which is great. When UCB started the cool down sequence, I went on my treadmill for 21 minutes, to raise my calorie burn higher. And the final number was 864 calories burned! Yeah, I'm a rock star! LOL. JK. (Not really.)

I think my thighs are already starting to feel a little sore. I thought my legs would fall off during those high step ups, let me tell you. But it felt good in a way, too. I always feel better after a workout. And I'm lucky that even at my weight (239 lbs.), I'm still able to do a Firm workout and nothing hurts, you know. I'm lucky.

OK, well, I'm gonna sign off now before this sounds preachy again. Let's all make good choices.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Day 50.

Hi everyone,

This is going to be a short post. I'm a little tired, and the Biggest Loser is on. LOL. Today was my late day at work, which meant I couldn't really do a super long workout like I've been doing the last few days. I almost didn't work out. I just was sooo not in the mood to do it, you know. And then on top of that, I started the workout late. But I sucked it up, and I did it.

The workout I chose was The Firm Hard Core Fusion Express with Allie Del Rio. I normally love Allie & her workouts, but I HATED this DVD. I don't think I will ever do it again. I just hated it, and I thought Allie was so freaking annoying in this workout. And I don't ever feel that way about Allie. I did burn 205 calories, which is a pretty low calorie burn for me. I usually like to burn at least 30o calories with any workout, but I was just so over HCF that I couldn't wait to finish working out! LOL. Tomorrow will be a super hardcore workout, which I'm already planning out in my head.

I woke up this morning and my neck was a little sore. I think I slept all twisted and funny. It hurt to look up this morning, but it's feeling better now. Thank God. Ok, I am gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Day 49.

Hi everyone,

Today was a better day. It helps when you have the routine of getting up to go to work to fall back on. I was on point with all of my food intake, writing everything down in my journal, and getting in all of my daily requirements. I feel really good, really positive, and it's a good (scratch that - a great) feeling, let me tell ya.

When I got on the scale this morning, I had lost 2.5 lbs of the 4.5 lbs that I had been retaining. So, I think I am on my way. It would be great if I was back at my WI by Weds., but we'll see how it goes. I may not lose any weight this week because I may either break even or be up a little. But I am hoping neither will be true. I'm thinking if I really up the workouts this week, I may lose a pound or so. That would be great.

Let's talk about the workout. I really brought it today, even though I didn't do a Firm workout. I started with Kathy Smithy's Step Aerobics DVD, then 25 minutes on the treadmill for 779 calories. I was pouring sweat, and it felt great. Those endorphins are truly wonderful things, they really are. My arms and shoulders are sore from yesterday's kickboxing workout. All those punches and elbow strikes. That's because I really put some oomph into those moves.

I am hoping to be down at least another pound by tomorrow, but again, we shall see. I'm confident I'll be down, even a little bit. This is my time, I can just feel it. Even with the bumps along this road, I am remaining confident. That's never happened before. This is definitely different, in a very awesome kind of way!

OK, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Day 48.

Hi everyone,

I woke up this morning and immediately jumped onto the scale to see how much damage I had done with my crackers & cheese last night. And - I am up 4.5 lbs. Ugh. I realize a lot of that might just be water retention, but that is still a lot of water! Well, it was my own fault, and I take full responsibility. No one to blame for it but myself.

I knew that the workout today had to be super duper major hardcore. I started the workout with The Firm Tight Buns & Killer Legs with Kelsie Daniels, then Kathy Smith's Kickboxing Workout, then The Firm Power Sculpt workout with Allie Del Rio. Yeah, that's a lot of workouts, but I had to do it. I burned 850 calories. It felt like I was working out forever, but it was worth it in the end. I mean, 850 calories! I guess I will know tomorrow if it my efforts paid off.

Well, the Jets lost today to the Colts and Peyton Manning. Sigh. We had a good run, and Mark Sanchez played really well. He's only going to get better, and hopefully, he will get us to the Promised Land. Ok, enough about that. This is a weight loss blog first and foremost, after all.

I will not let one bad day or a few bad food decisions define this me or my weight loss journey. I never claimed to be perfect or to have all the answers. Slip ups happen, and I've dealt with it already. Starting fresh. And continuing on to my success. It's different because it feels great. I am being positive, even in the aftermath of my bad decisions. Bad decisions are not and will not be my downfall. I will not let it be. Period.

You know, in the past, when I've gone through these episodes of bad eating and bingeing, I would always ignore this blog for however long the episode lasts - whether it was a week or longer. But it feels different this time. Like, the bingeing and the bad food decisions won't last any longer than that moment. I hope I'm explaining this right, because I'm not sure if I'm making any sense. I'm not ignoring this blog, and I'm not going to continue these bad food decisions either. I will come here, to this blog, to this place, because here is the one place I know I won't face any judgement. It's comforting to know that. I have to have some kind of outlet, I have to let the feelings out somehow. This is the place to do it. I'm so grateful for that. For this blog, and for you guys, the readers.

I feel so much better. I really do. No more hiding, no more hiding. It's enough. Thanks for listening, you guys. Let's all make good choices.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Day 47.

Hi everyone,

Today was a great day, and a not-so-great day all at the same time. I promise I will explain. First, the great day part. This morning at WI, I was down 1.8 lbs! Coupled with my 2.2 loss last week, that makes 4 lbs. gone in 2 weeks! What a great thing, right? I was real happy with that loss.

Unfortunately, I fell into some old patterns. It's like I chose to celebrate my weight loss with food. Ugh. Some cheese and almost an entire box of Wheat Thins later, I am feeling very stupid and very ashamed of myself. I am trying not to make it as if it were the end of the world, but I also realize that I need to give this some importance. At least, it was cheese & crackers, and not fried, greasy fast food from Hickory's, which is the BBQ place right by my house. The point is, I overate, and I feel awful about it. But I'm posting about it, because I need to be as honest as I can. This blog allows me to do that, and it keeps me accountable.

I was fine until after lunch. I had gotten in most of my daily requirements, but it was still bad. But I must move on and learn from this experience. I am not perfect, but I will be honest about it. One slip up does not signal the end of my journey. One slip up does not mean that I have failed. This journey will have its bumps in the road, and it's what we do after those bumps that can determine our success. I choose to pick myself up again by the bootstraps.

Today was a rest day for me. Which means that tomorrow, I will have to go at it super hardcore. That's ok with me, though. It is what it is. I will do this, I can just feel it. I know it, and I own it, dammit. LOL.

It felt good getting that off my chest. I needed to let it out and talk about it. I'm not sure how many people read this blog, if any, but just know that I do appreciate your reading. It means a lot to me. I will do this, and continue to make progress. With that said, let's all make good choices.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Day 46.

Hi everyone,

Another solid, on program day is practically over. I stayed within my points and got in all of my 8 Healthy Guidelines. The only time I really felt hungry was the time between my mid morning snack and lunchtime. After that, I felt fine. It's important to recognize to those feelings and do something constructive about it.

OK, I am beginning to sound a little preachy, so let's move on to the workout. I did a Firm workout that I had never done before. I did Burn, Shape & Tone with Rebekah Sturkie. This workout uses the 2 lb. cardio balls. I have to say, this particular was not one of my favorites. I didn't really get my heart rate up, so when I was done, I went on the treadmill for 55 minutes. And I burned 703 calories total. I pushed it hard because tomorrow is Weigh In Day, and I knew I had to go the extra mile. I'm pleased with my calorie burn. I'm not pleased that I had to be on the treadmill for that long to get it though. Already, I am feeling some soreness in my inner thighs and my quads. Whew.

Tonight is the telethon for Haiti. I'm watching it right now. I've already donated some money last week through the Red Cross, but I may text in a $10 donation. I thought about calling in a donation, just to see which celebrity would take my call, but I figure that's not really a good reason to do that. Besides, the focus is the terrible earthquake in Haiti & those poor people. Not to mention the aftershock that hit recently. Terrible. If you haven't donated yet, please do so. Lots of people need help.

So tomorrow is Weigh In day. I'm feeling very confident about it. I was totally on program all week, and as long as I register a loss, I will be ok with it. ANY loss is always great & always welcome. Period.

OK, I will update you tomorrow about how WI goes. Wish me luck. Let's all make good choices.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Day 45.

Hello everyone,

This week has been pretty solid for me. Heck, the last 18 days have been pretty solid, ever since I recommitted to this journey of mine. It's great, I feel great, and things are moving in a positive direction. I know I sound like a broken records, but positive reinforcement is soooo important on this journey, on any journey, to be perfectly honest. Think positively, and good things will happen. I firmly believe in that credo.

Let's talk about the workout today. I had already decided on doing a cardio/sculpting combination workout, so I went with PowerFit Cardio and The Firm Super Body Sculpt, both with Stephanie Huckabee. I burned 403 calories, and I was very happy with that number. I had some trouble doing the high step press, but I pressed on. I couldn't use any weight, just my own body weight. The good news is that I completed the abdominal section at the end of the workout. Me & those damn ab sections! LOL. Again, I had to modify some of the moves, but I didn't stop and I grunted my way through it. It was hard, man, really hard! My abs were killing me during & after, let me tell ya.

This morning, when I weighed myself, I was down a pound from Saturday's WI. I was happy with that. I know I shouldn't focus too much on the number, as long as it's going down, that's all that matters. I have to keep telling myself that, no matter what. Down, down, down - that's the direction my weight will go from now on. I know it, I can just feel it. I am doing this for me, I know I am important. I deserve this, I really do.

I don't say that to be cocky, but I must start saying it out loud for the simple reason that I never thought I deserved all that much before. But I do now, that's for sure. Nothing is getting in my way, no one is getting in my way. I can only control myself and my actions. End of story.

With that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Day 44.

Hi everyone,

Another solid day of good choices & tracking everything in my journal is pretty much done. I ate well, and another note, I'm actually sore from yesterday's workout. BFBM with Jillian is a tough workout, but I've never actually felt it the next day before. I've been feeling it all day long. My hamstrings, my shoulders and my back are all sore. At first, I couldn't figure it out, but then around 10 this morning, I realized it was because of the DVD. Man - who knew? I'll have to incorporate that particular DVD into my regular rotation.

Let's discuss the workout today. I decided on doing The Firm Burn & Shape with Emily Welsh. I hadn't done that workout in a while, so I figured I would give it a go. It's about 40 minutes long, and it incorporates both cardio and weight training, which is so important. I even did the ab section at the end of the workout, and you know how I feel about ab sections of any DVD that I do. I normally don't ever do them because I just don't think my abs - and myself - are strong enough to do it. That way of thinking changes right now. I can do things, I can push myself and my body. That's the only way change will happen. And it is gonna happen, people. I am in the process of going through a complete body transformation.

After the workout was over, I jogged in place for about 5 minutes to get my calorie burn up. I got it up to 326 calories, and I'm good with that. I was thinking today of the importance of strength training. That's one of the things I love about the Firm because they do incorporate weight training. It's such an important part of this journey, and I can't let my insecurities tell me that I can't perform certain exercises, like ab work. That kind of thinking will get me no where real fast. I can do these exercises. I'll have to modify the moves a bit, but that doesn't mean I can't at least try to do them. Pushing my body is the only way to change it.

I think what I may do in the future is switch my cardio & sculpting workouts. Like on Monday, I may do a cardio workout, then Tuesday a sculpting one. I'll also have to pyramid the weights up. Again, it's ok to do that to push a little. As long as I don't imagine myself to be some kind of bodybuilder, I'll be ok. I won't go crazy because I certainly don't want to injure myself.

OK, well, I had a previous blog that I tried to post and then I lost it. So I will wrap this one up in the hope that I actually get to publish it. Let's all make good choices.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Day 43.

Hello again,

Today was yet another day off from work for me. But I go back tomorrow, unfortunately. Sigh, oh well. Well, it's still a short work week, so I can't really complain all that much. I just hope I'm not all that busy at work tomorrow. We'll see. I don't want to really talk about work.

So let's discuss the workout. This will sound silly, but on Tuesdays, when the Biggest Loser airs, I always like to do a Jillian Michaels workout. Either 30 Day Shred, or Banish Fat Boost Metabolism. Today was the latter, or BFBM for short. That workout is really intense, very tough & high powered. I was pouring sweat almost from the beginning. I had burned a little more than 500 calories, but I wanted to get the calorie count up. So I jumped on the treadmill for another 15 minutes, and in total I burned 664 calories. Yup, 664 calories. It felt great, I have to tell ya. LOL.

I really pushed myself during the workout. Usually I have to modify some of the moves because I'm not as advanced as Jillian is. But today I decided to at least try to see if I could perform some of the more advanced moves. And you know what - I did it! I could actually do it! I mean, who knew? Not me, that's for sure. And it felt great, and I felt great. Those endorphins are some great stuff, I assure you. What a great feeling this is. I can feel myself changing. I can feel my body changing, and it's a wonderful feeling, my friend.

Ok, I am starting to repeat myself, so I will wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Day 42.

Hi everyone,

So far so good. Today was a day off from work, so we went to my brother's house to see Sonia. And him. But mostly to see Sonia. LOL. She was a little fussy & cranky today, but she calmed down, thanks to my brother. She is soo cute, I just love that kid. Everyone says she looks like me, which would explain why I love her so much.

I took a day of rest today from working out. I've worked out 5 days in a row, and my body needs a break. I'm already thinking about which workout to do tomorrow. Because the Biggest Loser is on tomorrow, I think I may do a Jillian Michaels workout. They are hard, she pushes you real hard. I think that's a good thing though, because your body will not change. It's ok to push your body. You would be surprised at what your body (and you) are capable of doing.

I'm really happy with my progress. Yes, I know I had a major setback, gaining 40 lbs. back is a major setback, but I'm fighting through it. I won't go back now. I will only move forward.

Ok, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

Day 41.

Hi everyone,

Today was a great day! The Jets won, and I had an awesome Firm workout. Can't ask for anything more, I have to say. LOL. Man, what a great game. No one can say same ole Jets anymore. They are doing it, man. They are going places. I love it! I am a diehard Jets fan, and I've been waiting my whole life for them to make a run like this. It's great! In typical Jets fashion, they just had to make it a close game, and things just fell in their favor. It's luck, and it's talent, and I will take it! So will the Jets, I'm sure.

The workout today was pretty intense. And I have to say that I kinda loved every minute of it, too. Does that sound corny? It does a little, doesn't it. Oh, I don't care. This is a great feeling. I started with Power Fit Cardio with Stephanie Huckabee, then The Firm Parts Standing Legs. I burned 704 calories!! Yeah, I know - that's a lot, right. And it felt great. I upped the weights a little, and it got my heart rate way up. Which explains why the calorie burn was so high. Fine with me though. The more calories burned, the better.

I'm watching 24 as I type this. The reviews have been saying it's returned to the way it used to be back when it was a great show. The game show host from Slumdog Millionaire is playing the president of some East Asian country. Anywho, enough about that. I'm really happy with how the last 2, 3 weeks have been going. I really believe in my heart and in my head that I have finally turned the proverbial corner. It's too late to go back. I can only move forward and press on.

Ok, I'm going to wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices. Let's go Jets!!

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Day 40.

Hi everyone,

Today was WI, and it went fantastic. I lost 2.2 lbs!! Yeah baby. I felt really good about it. See what happens when you stay on program, track everything & work out? It's so simple really, just make good choices and remember to write everything down, and you'll be alright. Thank goodness for great karma, huh?

So let me tell you about my usual routine for WI Saturdays. It's gonna sound a little dumb, but it works for me, so why mess with it. I get up early, go to WI by 8:30 or so, leave, go grocery shopping, then come back home to work out, have breakfast, and then go to the WW meeting at 12. I like to WI early in the morning before I've eaten anything because I feel that will be a true weight, you know. I know, I'm running back & forth, but this works for me.

My meeting today was all about incorporating more filling foods. Filling foods are not as processed, so things like broccoli, brown rice, whole wheat pasta, grapes, cauliflower, etc, are all filling foods. They are all things that will keep you fuller, for longer. My leader also said to to check off whenever we eat filling foods this week, so I will be doing that all week.

Let's discuss the workout. I started with 20 minutes on the treadmill, then I did The Firm Parts Upper Body. I burned 482 calories, then later in the evening, I did my Ab Roller for about 7 minutes. I know I burned at least 20 calories, so I burned more than 500 calories today! That's pretty freakin' awesome, if I do say so myself. My glutes & my thighs are still sore, and that's why I decided to focus on an upper body workout today. I really must start working my midsection also, because otherwise it won't ever change. Sigh. My abs, or lack thereof, are the bane of my existence. I think I may have mentioned that before, but oh well. That will change, just you wait!

You know, for some reason, I thought that today would be a bad food day, but that's not the case at all. That's a really good thing! Staying positive, being strong & focused. I will wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Day 39.

Hi everyone,

My glutes & my thighs are so sore from yesterday's workout. Get Chisel'd with Rebekah is pretty intense, especially if you do the advanced moves, which I tried to do yesterday. I did most of them, but at the end, I just couldn't. I had never tried to do some of those moves before yesterday, and I have to admit that it felt really good that I could do it. Some of them, anyway.

Since tomorrow is WI, I knew that I had to go all out in today's workout. I knew that it would be a good idea to do 2 Firm WOs back to back. And that's exactly what I did. I started with The Firm Fat Burning Cardio with Tina Smalley, then I did Super Cardio Sculpt with Nancy Tucker, for a total of 648 calories! Yeah, 648 calories! During Tina's workout with the resistance cord I could really feel the burn. Man, it really hurt! I hadn't done Super Cardio Sculpt in a while

This week, the last 2 weeks, really, have been just great. I've been making good choices, working out again, and I just feel different. I need to remember that the next time I want to make a really disastrous choice food-wise again. I need to come back here and look over these postings, and I need to remember how great I feel right now, right at this moment. I just need to remember that.

It's all about making good choices, thinking positively, and working out. Be consistent, and this will happen. It IS happening, that's just it. This is great! I feel great, I feel positive, I feel consistent. Oh man, it truly is liberating taking control, it really is.

OK - this is sounding a little corny, so I am gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices, everyone.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Day 38.

Hi everyone,

I am still doing so unbelievably well this week, and I'm loving every single second of it. I went over my points today by 2, BUT I worked out hardcore today to make up for it.

I decided on doing The Firm Get Chisel'd with Rebekah Sturkie, then 13 minutes on the treadmill for some more cardio. In total, I burned 487 calories. It was great, and I even did the ab section at the end. Ab sections of Firm DVDs are the bane of my existence. I just don't have any abdominal muscles at all, so I don't ever do them. NEVER. But I am trying to change my way of thinking. For example, today when I did the ab section, I had to modify some of the moves for me. When they lift their knees and lower them, I can't do it because it's too hard. But I can modify it just a bit. And I can certainly modify my way of thinking. See how I did that there? LOL. My lower abs are just bad - my mid section & my inner thighs make me crazy. Sigh. But I'm gonna change that - don't you worry!

I just want to say one thing that is a little off topic. This is first and foremost a weight loss blog. Writing helps me a lot on this journey. Having said that, I have to talk a little bit about the massive earthquake that hit Haiti yesterday. If any people read this blog at all, and if you're in a position to, please donate to help those poor people. They are victims of a horrible act of nature. Anything you can give will make a difference. I won't tell you how much I donated, but I will tell you that I went online to the Red Cross website and charged my donation to my credit card. Remember that there are those in the world less fortunate than you right now. And be thankful for everything you have. Take a little look around, and take a minute to be grateful. Put things in perspective, and remember all the things that are important to you.

Ok, that is all I'm gonna say about that. When I weighed myself this morning, I was happy to see that I was down another half pound from yesterday. I was thrilled to see that. Tomorrow will be my last chance workout, and I'm gonna go Super Hardcore. Yup, that needed to be in capital letters for sure. I haven't decided which Firm DVD I'll do, but I'll figure that out later. No worries.

OK, I'm off now and gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Day 37.

Hi everyone,

One of the things I’ve been noticing this week is that I’m less hungry during the day than I used to be. The only real bad time is between noon & 1:30, which is when I usually eat lunch. But it's lessening, I have to say. That’s a great thing, and a huge improvement from where I was feeling over Christmas & New Year’s. My major weak point is at night, around 9, 9:30 PM. I start to crave things, like salty thing such as crackers & cheese or chips. I don’t know what it is about that time of night. Last night I had a major hunger pang, but I did my best to ignore it & overcome it. I am proud to say that I did!! I just concentrated on what was more important to me - food or my success. That is what they call a NSV in WW language. Non Scale Victory.

So let's talk about the workout. I started with PowerFit Cardio with Stephanie, then The Firm Maximum Cardio Burn with Allie Del Rio. I even tried to do the ab section at the end, which is the first time I've ever attempted to do it. I didn't have much success, but at least I tried. I had to modify some of the moves, but it was fine. I burned 524 calories, so I'll take it. It had been a while since I had done this workout, and it was just a little hard. I've been trying to plan which Firm DVDs I'll do in advance, but it doesn't always work out that way. I can't decide which Firm workout to do tomorrow, but there's still time to figure that out.

Even with my TOM coming this week, I am thrilled to report that I am down 1.5 lbs. since Saturday! See what happens when you follow program faithfully & work out? I mean, God, who knew it could be as easy as that? LOL. This can be as easy or as hard as you make it. I am doing this thing. I am doing it the right way, writing everything in my journal & making sure to get in all of my requirements, like the healthy oil. Yesterday I went to the supermarket and picked up a bottle of safflower (did I spell that right?) oil for $5.99. I really wanted to get sunflower seed oil, but they didn't have any. I had thought that my 2 Tbsp. of light salad dressing would satisfy the oil requirement, but apparently I was wrong. So I think that from now on, I will add either 2 teaspoons of olive oil into my salad dressing, or mix in 2 teaspoons of safflower oil into my smoothie. Simple as that.

So this week so far has been great. The last 2 weeks have been good, with a few slip ups here and there. Nothing so awful tho, but definitely something that can't happen. I mean, I certainly know now at this point that the only person who can derail me from my success is me. Period, end of story. That's just the reality of the situation. I'm not letting anything get in my way.

OK, I will wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Day 36.

Hi everyone,

I am having a really easy re-commitment to my weight loss journey. It feels great, it really does. In fact, this morning when I weighed myself, I was back down to my WW Saturday morning weight. Thank goodness.

I am getting in all of my daily requirements, and I do not feel deprived at all. I'm eating every few hours, refueling, and I'm doing it smart. I'm not eating junk (not too much!) and it feels good.

You know, it's strange, because there are days when I'm really chatty on here, and other days, I don't have much to say. Like today. Day of rest for me today, so I don't have much to say.

With that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Monday, January 11, 2010

Day 35.

Hi everyone,

I just need to start with something that's completely off topic. Is anyone really surprised that Mark McGwire took steroids? That has to be probably the worst kept secret in baseball, ever. I want to believe his sincerity in his apology, but I kinda don't buy it at all. He really should've done that a loong time ago. He did seem contrite, and he cried often, but maybe it's too little, too late? Who knows. But whatever.

OK, this first and foremost a weight loss blog. So let's talk about that now. I had a doctor's appointment after work today, and when I got home I really did not want to work out. I definitely did not want to do a Firm workout. So I had to compromise with myself. I started doing a kickboxing video, but I wasn't feeling it. So I stopped after about 7 minutes. Then I decided to at least do the treadmill, which I did, for 35 minutes. I burned 369 calories. So I was very happy with that.

I had a little bit of a food episode last night with some crackers and cheese. Ok, in my defense, let me just say that my TOM will be coming this week, and I am CRAVING salt. Lots of salt. LOL. I think once I actually get it, I'll be ok. I don't really have anything in my house like chips or anything, so I think that will be my saving grace. I have to remember that some things are way more important than food. I was up 2 lbs. this morning when I weighed myself and I can attribute that to my retaining water. It's ok. I'm sure I'll get it off in no time. So I'm good with that.

OK - on that note, I'm going to wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Day 34.

Hi everyone,

It's Sunday night, and I can't believe the weekend is over already. Where does the time go? And yet, at work, time just seems to drag & drag endlessly. Sigh. Anywho, let's talk about how my day went.

It was pretty mediocre. I didn't really do all that much today. In fact, I didn't even leave the house. I wanted to, earlier in the day. I thought about going out to get a mani & pedi, but then I decided I just wanted a lazy day to myself. And that's exactly what I did. LOL.

I did work out today. I did a Firm workout that I hadn't done in a long time - 500 Calorie WO with Kelsie Daniels. I burned 537 calories. Which is great, because I'm having a food day today. My TOM will be here this week, and I feel like eating everything under the sun. I have gone over my points today, but I haven't eaten anything outrageous. So I'm thankful for that, at least.

Anywho, not much else to write about now. I'm excited about Big Love coming back. It's about time. Ok, that's all for now. Let's all make good choices.

Day 33 & WI.

Hi everyone,

I realize I am posting this the next day, and I don't really do that ever. But I have a good reason. No, I did not self sabotage & binge last night. After we came home from the party (more on that later), I was so exhausted from that & screaming myself hoarse from watching the Jet game (they won) that I was in bed & asleep by 9:30. On a Saturday night. Yeah, I'm a loser, I know. Whatever man, I was tired.

Let's talk about WI first. I was up 2.6 lbs. since the last time I weighed in, which was December. I'm ok with that. It could've been a LOT worse, and by some miracle, it wasn't. I'll get that off in the next few weeks. I am confident of that. I do have some sad news to report tho. My WW leader Carol, a breast cancer survivor, has had a reocurrence. She had her first chemo session last week. In her words tho, she is "gonna kick the shit out of it." I will be thinking positive things for her of course. She is such a nice, sweet lady. Enough about that tho, it's just too sad to think about. On another note, my meeting was packed. I guess all those New Year's Resolutions ppl have decided to file in. Eh, they'll be gone in a few weeks, I think.

The party for my sister-in-law was kinda boring. Her family is Russian, so they all just sat around & spoke in Russian to each other. Needless to say, we left early. The food was ok, they had bought a lot of it already prepared. It was Middle Easter food, so they had things like lamb, beef, rice, sauted onions with salmon, and pitas. They did have Russian caviar & kosher pickles, and salami & turkey cutlets. I went easy on the carbs. I had just a small piece of beef, chicken, about a quarter cup of rice, and some salad. We left before they had cake because they kept toasting. Russian toasts last forever. I wasn't having any of it. Plus the Jet game was on man. LOL. My brother hired a family of mariachis to play & serenade her, which was cute. It was a father & 2 sons. The dad has been playing the trumpet for 50 years, one of the sons said. They were very good. We taped some of it, and I took pictures of Sonia. LOL. She was soooo cute! Love that kid.

When I got home, I was still hungry. This could've been a major recipe for disaster. But I was smart about it. I did eat, but here's how I played it. I decided that my protein intake for the day was done. I had a toasted Arnold thin, 1 slice of WW American cheese, a bag of WW pretzel thins, & WW strawberry shortcake. With a little more whipped cream. And that was it. I was still a little hungry, but luckily, that's when my exhaustion kicked in, and I decided to call it a night.

Oh, and I didn't even talk about the workout today. It had to be a short one, because I felt rushed all day long. Ugh. I started with 5 minutes on the treadmill, then The Firm Fat Blasting Cardio with Lisa Kay for 347 calories. I was happy with that calorie burn. Sunday will be a long workout. I haven't figured out which one yet. As long as it's a workout that gets my calorie burn up & over 400, I'll be good.

OK - time to wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Day 32 & TGIF!!

Hi everyone,

I'm glad it's Friday, how about you? LOL. We got a very light coating of snow, but I still shoveled the driveway & sidewalk. I also threw down some ice melt & viola. I'm glad we didn't get a ton of snow honestly. Shoveling snow is NOT fun at all.

Let's talk about the workout. Since tomorrow will be my first WI of the year, I decided that I had to go all out. I chose a Firm workout that I hadn't done in a long time - Ultimate Calorie Blaster with Stephanie. Before that though, I jumped on the treadmill for 23 minutes, bringing my calorie burn to 684 calories! Yup, go me! I sweated like a pig and it felt good. I will be still be up at WI tomorrow, but that doesn't matter. Start fresh & continue the journey. I am making excellent choices, I'm writing everything in my journal, and I am feeling pretty great.

I am determined to make this year MY year. I know I sound like a broken record because I've been saying that over and over, but I need to put it out there. Good energy comes back to you. Negative energy and negative feelings don't have a place on this journey. No one is perfect, and maybe I'll have a mishap here and there, but I won't ever quit. I know I will get there this year. I just know it!

I'm thinking that tomorrow's party will be a quick affair. At least, I'm hoping that it will be. I really, REALLY want to see the Jets game. There is no way I can miss it, you know. Let's go Jets!

And on that positive note, I'm going to bid you guys adieu. Let's all make good choices.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Day 31.

Hi everyone,

Another cool, calm sailing day on this journey of mine. Since today was going to be a rest day from working out, I decided that I could not go over my points. And I stuck to that, and I did not go over! Go me! Just one day at a time, ppl. Today is all we have because anything more than that is not guaranteed.

My brother called today and told us he is planning a surprise party for my sister in law on Saturday. Way to give notice, bro. And of course, he just HAD to schedule the party right smack in the middle of the Jets game. Ugh. I know that the party is more important, of course. It's just that the Jets making the playoffs is rare, who knows when they will get there again? Oh well, I guess that's what DVR is for!

I'm not really sure what to expect food wise from this party. I will definitely eat before we leave. He said for us to be there around 2 or 3, which is perfect lunch timing. We'll eat lunch, then go. I guess it will be ok to have a small piece of cake. If there's finger food, I will either stay away from it completely, or just have a tiny taste of something that I really want, whatever that may be. Moderation will be key. It's ok to eat things you normally wouldn't, as long as you're smart about it.

I'm definitely going to work out before we leave. I have an idea of the videos I want to do on Saturday that will give me a high calorie burn, so that I won't have to worry too much if I indulge at the party. I'll be ok tho, as long as I plan & prepare in advance.

My arms & shoulders have been sore ever since I did that upper body Firm workout. It's a good feeling, I take it to mean that I worked really hard, but I just can't believe that I've been sore for this long. Man, I guess I really brought the intensity that day! LOL.

Alright then, I am going to wrap this one up. Good day, all around. Let's all make good choices.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Day 30.

Hi everyone,

So far, so good. I am just writing everything down and being smart about the choices I make. I am also determined NOT to let outside forces (people & non-people) lead me off the path.

I just need to discuss the Biggest Loser real quick. First, I need to begin by saying that I don't think it's right for these super morbidly obese people to bike a marathon right off the bat. Did the producers not learn anything from last seasons's mile on the beach? I mean, what are they thinking? Mike from Chicago & the twins just broke my heart. This will sound just a little mean but there is always someone who's got it worse than you do. I have a very long road ahead of me but I will presevere! And I thought Bob was beginning to act like Jillian just a bit much for my taste. Bob is supposed to be the nicer one. But it seems like he's turning into her and I'm not really digging it.

OK, time to talk about my workout now. Since tomorrow will be my rest day, I wanted to step it up today. I decided on doing a Firm workout that I don't really like but gets my calorie burn up. I did The Firm Cardio Overdrive with Alison Davis. I still wasn't happy with the calorie burn, so I jumped onto the treadmill for 30 minutes. That brought my calorie burn to 703 calories! Oh yeah, the endorphins were in full mode. I was more than happy with my end result.

2010 is my year, I feel it. I know it, I'm gonna own it, and it's gonna be mine. It already is mine. I must stay positive and focus on the big picture. No more failures, no more! This journey can and WILL end only 1 way - with me reaching goal. Period. End of story.

This journey doesn't always have to be a struggle. It can be very easy as long as you make it easy. I - and everyone else on this journey - have to remember that there are things more important than food. This will be as easy - or as hard - as I choose to make it. I cannot turn to food. Food is NOT a way to cope - it just isn't! It won't ever be. Food does NOT have a hold over me. I am going to do this, come hell or high water. (What does that expression even mean, anyway?)

Alright, that's enough time on the soapbox for me. Let's all make good choices people.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Day 29 and it's time to be more honest.

Hi everyone,

This is going well - so far, so good. I am remaining focused & positive. I am afraid this is going to be a short post since the Biggest Loser is on tonight. In honor of the show, I decided to do 30 Day Shred Level 1 with Jillian tonight. I burned 217 calories, and I'm ok with that. Today was my long day at work, so I had to pick a short workout DVD. 30 Day Shred seemed like a good fit for today. Tomorrow will definitely be a longer, higher intensity workout for sure. I'm thinking of doing 500 calorie burn workout tomorrow, but I am not sure.

I've decided that it's time to be more honest in this blog. This weekend will be my first WI of the New Year, and I will start posting my weight. Probably on the side of the blog somehow. I will also post pictures this weekend, too. I promise! It's time to get real. Real honest. Raw. It's just time. There's no better way to do this other than honestly, and that's just my opinion. That's the ONLY way to do it. 2010 is going to be my year. I know it is. I can just feel it. I won't let anything get in my way this time. I am too important. I am too important for failure, dammit!

I don't believe in making resolutions anymore. But I do think it's important to have goals and to set goals. It gives you something to inspire to. That said, I've decided that this year I will not surround myself with negativity. I will purge the negative people out of my life for good. Friends come and friends go, but they come and go for a reason. I am attempting to climb out of my hole, and I cannot let anyone drag me down into theirs. It's just not going to happen. Just because you happen to be dealing with your BS does not mean that I have to deal with it. I want to move out of my parents' house this year and buy a condo. I want to finally finish my thesis. I want to try new things. I want to meet new people and keep an open mind. There are a lot of things I can do and will do. I refuse to let anyone or anything get in my way.

OK ppl - I'm wrapping this one up. Man it felt good to let that all out! Let's all make good choices.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Day 28.

Hi everyone,

Day 2 of being back on track is going great. This morning when I weighed myself, I was down 4.5 lbs from yesterday! Oh yeah. I snuck in some low sodium potato chips, but nothing major. I'm back to journalling everything and working out hardcore. I'm real happy with how this is going. Granted, I know it's only Day 2. But I am just so damn determined this time around. It has to be different. This will only be as hard as I make it. It's only a big deal if I make it a big deal. I know that this journey of mine is important, and I have to be smart about it, but it doesn't have to be so difficult all the time. It really doesn't. One day at a time sometimes means one second at a time. It depends on what's going on, right.

I had a super OP day and got in all of my 8 Daily HG. Work still sucks and no one is really talking to me still, but whatever. They just need to get over it already. Not only that, but some ppl there really need to get their lives in order. But whatever, those ppl are sooo not my problem. I need to be selfish and just focus on myself, because I am more important than anything that could possibly be going on at work. Period. End of story.

With that said, let's talk about the workout today. Let me begin by saying that yesterday's Power Sculpt made my glutes, my thighs & my calves extremely sore today. I was actually starting to feel it last night - that's how intense the workout was. That's how much I could feel it. Today I started with PowerFit Cardio with Stephanie Huckabee. That's quickly becoming one of my favorite go-to workouts. Then onto Firm Parts Upper Body. I pyramided the weights up just a little this time - I used 10s & 7s. I know my arms & shoulders will be sore tomorrow now, too. Then a quick 5 minutes on my Ab Roller. So my abs will be sore tomorrow too. LOL. I burned a total of 469 calories. Freaking awesome, if you ask me.

I'm trying to remain positive, and this has been one of my weak points in the past. It's hard sometimes to be positive, but you can never give up. I know that first hand. Man, do I ever. But gotta keep soldiering on. What other choice do we have?

I've thought about putting some pictures up since that's always a good way to mark progress. I still have to think about how I'll do that. Maybe this weekend, I'll tool around with the settings of the blog. I'll keep you updated.

I'm gonna wrap this baby up by saying Go JETS!! What a great game last night. I didn't think it would be that kind of blow out, but I'm glad they won. Win & you're in - that was their motto going into last night's game. And now they face the Bengals again on Saturday. I'm excited. Thanks for letting me vent. Let's all make good choices.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

Day 27 - New Year, New Resolve (NOT RESOLUTION.

Oh hi. AGAIN.

--Sheepish look.--

Ok, so um, yeah..... I fell off the wagon. Real bad. Christmas & my birthday (which is New Year's Day) were pretty awful, food-wise. It got so bad that I haven't weighed in at WW for a while. I know you've heard this before, but this time will be different. It MUST be different. I cannot fail. I cannot give up or throw in the towel. If I give up, I fail, and I am NOT willing to do that. I can do this and I KNOW I can do this. Enough is enough.

It is not just because it's a new year. It's not about resolutions. I hate New Year's resolutions. I'm done making resolutions. My past resolutions have always been the same - to lose weight. Never happened. That said, I know 2010 will be my year. I just know it. I can feel it. This year will be different. I will be different. I KNOW I will be different. It's time, man. It really is. I cannot continue to self sabotage. It has to end. It stops RIGHT NOW.

I worked out for the first time today in a while. It felt good to work out again. I did 25 minutes on the treadmill, then The Firm Power Sculpt Workout with Allie del Rio for 470 calories. I have a feeling my butt & my legs & thighs will be very sore tomorrow. But it's all good. Feeling sore means I worked out hard. Here's to working hard in 2010 and from now on.

I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. Today, January 3, 2010 is the continuation of my journey. It's not Day 1. I know what I need to do. I will continue. I will endure. I WILL DO THIS. No matter what. (I'm a big fan of the caps lock key today, aren't I? LOL.)

Alright, I will wrap this up. The Jets game is on, and they need to win tonight against the Bengals in order to get into the playoffs. Let's go Jets! And let's also make good choices. I will from now on. Thanks for letting me get all this off my chest. Nite.