Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Day 114.

OK, so here's the thing. I'm still kinda sick, but I am feeling just a little bit better. I'm probably at about 70% right about now, but it's better than how I was feeling yesterday. I'm really hoping I'll be ok by Friday, but we'll see.

Today was my long day at work, and when I got home, I knew which workout I wanted to do. I started with 21 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then The Firm Fat Blasting Cardio with Lisa Kay. This has quickly become one of my favorite little workouts. I burned 527 calories, and I'm real happy with that number. I know I worked hard today, and I feel good about it.

You know what else I feel good about? When I weighed myself this morning, I was down a half pound from Saturday! Yeah baby! But I wonder how much of this is due to me being sick. I think I'm not going to stress out about too much. I'm on track, I'm writing everything down in my journal, I'm not going over my points, and I'm doing everything right. So as long as I concentrate on the positive and concentrate on the things that are actually in my control and not on the things that are not, I'll be ok.

I'm really looking forward to my day off on Friday. I refuse to work on Good Friday ever again, and since my office won't close that day, I'm forced to use a vacation day. Shrug. What are u gonna do? At least I'll have a nice long weekend. I just need to get through tomorrow first, and then it's home clear.

I don't feel like cooking or preparing anything for my lunch tomorrow, so I think I'm just gonna go to Subway. I always get the Oven roasted chicken breast on whole wheat bread & lots of veggies. I take some WW pretzel chips, and it makes for a very nice & filling lunch. It's good to change things around every once in a while. If you keep eating the same things over & over, you'll get bored. That's why I can't really look at grilled peppers now because I overdid the grilled peppers thing last summer. I don't even like them anymore now. Oh wells.

Ok, I think I'm gonna wrap this one up now. Let's all make good choices.

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Day 113 - Sick Day.

Hi everyone,

I am feeling miserable right now. I'm stuffed & congested, and I'm sneezing like crazy. I took a sick day from work today and went to a walk in medical center. The doctor there diagnosed sinusitis, and she prescribed the Z-pack & Nasonex for me. I'm also taking Mucinex, so I'm really hoping I'll be able to breathe tonight. The good news is I don't have a fever. I still feel like crap, but I guess it could always be worse, right?

It's been pouring all day, and it caused my cable & Internet connection to go out for like 2 hours. Thankfully, it's come back on at the perfect time - right before LOST. Phew. LOL.

I did not work out today. And I'm starting to feel guilty about it, but I'm really sick. My head feels like it's going to pop. I'm really hoping that tomorrow I will feel at least a little better. But we'll see. I will work out tomorrow no matter what. I swear! LOL.

My eating was spot on today, so I'm not worried about that part. I really wish I could breathe out of my nose - it would be so nice, believe me. Ugh. Well, I think I'm gonna wrap this one up. So let's all make good choices.

Monday, March 29, 2010

Day 112.

Hi everyone,

Another fantastic day of being back on track. Thank God. It feels good, it really does. My eating was spot on, I tracked everything in my journal, and I did not go over my points at all. It was a good day.

Initially, I was only going to do a really short workout since it was my long day at work today. But a little voice told me to push it today, and get out of my comfort zone. So I pushed myself today, and I worked out for a little over an hour. And you know what? All I lost were calories. It definitely was NOT a waste of time. If anything, it was an hour (a little longer) very well spent. I did 2 workout DVDs today. I started with Kathy Smith's step workout, then PowerFit Cardio with Stephanie. And I burned 622 calories. And I loved it. It was great, and it felt great! I'm glad I did it, I'm glad I pushed myself, I'm glad I worked out hard, I'm glad the sweat was dripping, and I'm glad I was able to keep up with the workouts.

When I weighed myself this morning, I was delighted to see that I had lost 3 of the 5 pounds that I had been up. 3 pounds gone, thank God. I'm hoping tomorrow to be down at least another pound from my workout today, but we'll see. Tomorrow is going to be another hardcore workout, and I have an idea of what I want to do, but we'll talk about that later.

I just want to thank you guys for taking the time to leave me comments. I really appreciate it, I can't tell you guys just how much I appreciate it! I love bloggy world - you guys are awesome!

In other (bad) news, I think I am definitely getting sick. Ugh. I'm feeling pressure in my sinuses, and it's definitely not allergies. Usually this feeling doesn't last all day like it has the last 2 days. This really sucks. I haven't been sick in 4 years. At least my throat isn't bothering me anymore, which is good. I've bee overdosing on Dayquil, Vitamin Cs & Nyquil, so I'm hoping this thing won't last too long. And I'm hoping that by working out, it'll help me get over this bug or whatever it is that I have. My allergy symptoms consist of sneezing & a little bit of pressure in my nasal area, and unfortunately, my Nasanex & Allegra are not relieving my cold symptoms. Double ugh.

Well, I think I'm gonna wrap this one up now. I may need to get more cold meds tomorrow. Let's all make good choices.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Day 111.

Confession time. Yes, a dreaded confession. Last night, after my post, I had an episode. I wanted really bad food. I wound up having some chicken fingers, french fries & mozzarella sticks. Yup, I went to Hickory's BBQ right by my house. Ugh. Just typing that out loud makes me want to throw up. No wonder I'm up 5 lbs. from yesterday. Yeah - 5 freaking pounds! Disgusting, isn't it? I just don't know what came over me. I feel so bloated & gross. This can't happen again. And you know what, it's not going to! I'm done! Moving on now!

Today I had lunch at Grand Lux Cafe with Kathy & Allason. It was good to see them again. We used to work together in high school. They've been best friends since they were born, practically. They grew up across the street from each other. And just so happens that they got married around the same time, and their kids are the same age too! How funny is that. The two of them split a club sandwich, and I had salad & an appetizer Margherita pizza. I wound up giving them some of the pizza, which worked out just fine. We didn't get the bread basket either, so double bonus. I wound up leaving the restaurant feeling satisfied & pleasantly full, and not at all grossly overstuffed. It was great. I've been on track all day,tracking everything in my journal and it feels good.

I think I'm coming down with something, which really sucks. I woke up Friday morning with a dry throat, but I think it's more sore than dry. It doesn't hurt to swallow at all, but I do feel like my throat is a little itchy. It can't be dry because I drink more than a gallon of water every single day. I haven't gotten sick in 4 years, and I'll be damned if I let myself get sick now. I'm gonna will myself better. Today after lunch, I went to CVS & loaded up on cough drops, Nyquil & Dayquil. I'm starting to feel a little better now, and hopefully I'll be fine by tomorrow.

The workout today was super hardcore. I started with 40 minutes on the treadmill. I did about half inclined, half not. I was pouring sweat when I got off. Then I did The Firm Ultimate Calorie Blaster with Stephanie Huckabee, which is a really tough workout. It uses the TransFirmer, and it had been a while since I had done that DVD. Those TransFirmer climbs are killer! I literally lost my breath a few times there. And I burned 874 calories. It felt good, sweat poring all over me. LOL.

Alright, that's enough babbling. I'm gonna wrap this one up now. Let's all make good choices.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Day 110 & Weigh Day.

Today was WI day, and I was thrilled to see I was down another pound! I was real happy about that. I guess working out twice yesterday really paid off!

I decided to take a rest day, but I will be back at it tomorrow. I'm thinking a nice long workout is in order.

It's a nice, lazy Saturday. I don't have a lot to talk about because I haven't really doe too much today. Sad, isn't it? Sigh. OH well.

Tomorrow, I'm having lunch with Kathy & Allason, and I can't wait. It'll be fun to get together with them! More on that tomorrow.

I'm gonna wrap up this quick little post. Let's all make good choices.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Day 109.

I am DVRing Jamie Oliver's Food Revolution tonight. I love Jamie Oliver - I think he's adorable, and I love British accents. He's tackling a monumental task - trying to change how today's young kids eat. Good luck with that, Jamie. I admire his gumption, and I hope he's successful.

I was happy with having the day off from work today. I'm taking off next Friday too - Good Friday. My office doesn't give you the day off like most other businesses do, but whatever. It doesn't really matter.

I worked out twice today. In all, I burned a little more than a 1,000 calories. In the morning, I started with Step Reebok the Video with Gin Miller, then I did a Firm sculpting workout - Total Body Toner with Allie del Rio. I burned 615 calories with those 2. I ran some errands, went grocery shopping, came back home & had some lunch. I really had to dig deep to work out again. I was getting tired & lazy, and I really didn't want to do another work out. But, I sucked it up. Big time. I did KickMax with Cathe Friedrich for 412 calories. I'm glad I did it, and I'm glad it's over now! LOL. I just hope it shows on the scale tomorrow morning at WI. We'll see.

When I weighed myself this morning, I was down a pound from yesterday, but still up a half pound from last Saturday. This WI tomorrow should be interesting. You know, if I'm up tomorrow, I'm up. If I'm down - that's great. I just have to take whatever number shows up, period. That's just how it is. Don't get me wrong - I would love to be down a pound. I would love to be down 0.2. But it's my fault I self sabotaged earlier this week. And I've been paying for it all week. It's all on me, no one else.

Overall tho, today was a great day. I tracked everything, I stayed within my points, I didn't go over, and I worked out super hardcore. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

Day 108.

Ok, so yesterday I posted those dreaded, awful pictures. Ugh. But I'm glad I did though. It was good to post them, to see what I'm dealing with. Small steps. I thin what I'll do from now on is post pics every time I lose 10 lbs. How does that sound? Sounds good to me.

So let's discuss the workout tonight. My arms & shoulders are a little sore from yesterday's workout, so I thought I should do a lower body workout today to even things out. I started with 10 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Parts Standing Legs. That is a tough workout man. Phew, I was pouring sweat when it was over. Then I thought I would do my Ab Roller for a little bit, and I wound up burning 543 calories. I'm real good with that number. I worked out hard today.

I'm taking the day off from work tomorrow, and I'm so glad I am. It's supposed to rain, but I don't really care. Maybe later in the day tomorrow I'll be able to go for a walk outside, but we'll see how the weather is.

When I weighed myself this morning, I was only up a pound & a half from Saturday's WI. I'm good with that. I have a feeling that between tonight's workout & tomorrow's workout, I'll be just fine. Tomorrow the plan is for me to workout twice. Once for an hour in the morning, & again for another hour in the afternoon. I can do it, I know I can. I'll do whatever I have to do to lose weight - within reason. I'm definitely not going to do anything stupid or life endangering.

OK, I think I'm gonna wrap this one up now. It was a great day for me today. So let's all make good choices.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Day 107.

Back to normalcy, back to sanity, Day 2. It feels good. Today was a good day. No, it was a great day. And I thank God for that.

The pic in the blue t shirt is of me, my first day at WW, July 20, 2007. I'm 262 lbs. in this pic. Horrifying. The one in maroon is today, at 230is lbs. I still look huge. Sigh.

Ok, I weighed myself this morning. Yeah, I just couldn't help it, because I had to know what the damage was. And I was a little surprised, because I was only up 2.5 lbs. I say surprised because I fully expected to be up like 5 or 6 lbs. This is totally doable. I might even lose weight this week. Correction, I WILL lose weight this week. I am determined. I will work out all day on Friday if I have to. I'll pull a Biggest Loser last chance workout if that's what it takes, believe me.

Let's talk about the workout. It had to be a short workout today since it was my long day at work. I started with 10 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then The Firm Parts Upper Body. I burned 327 calories. A low number, but I'm ok with it. The next 2 days will be hard core working out.

I'm running out of things to say, so I think I'll just wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Day 106.

Hi everyone,

I am back to sanity now. No bingeing, no overeating, and back on track. Back to writing everything in my journal. I have to say, it feels really good to be back in control again. I just don't know what came over me. Fear maybe? Jen over at & Kat over at have posted recently about their own fears about this journey. Some of their fears include losing the weight & then gaining it all back, which is one of my fears too.

I'm not exactly sure why I freaked out & went on a food bender, but it's over now. I do have to address it though. It started with that burger on Saturday and it went downhill from there. I'm still really pissed at myself about it. Today I drank a whole crapload of water to try flush my system. I've been peeing all day, but I don't mind.

Let's talk about the workout. I started with 20 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Calorie Killer with Nancy Tucker. And I burned 611 calories! That inclined treadmill is a wonderful thing, I'm telling ya. I burn so many calories on the incline than on the regular flat treadmill. Back in the game again.

It's great to be back on track again. It's a good feeling. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Day 105.

So I’m posting this the day after because that is how off the wagon and ashamed I have been the last 3 days. Eating is out control, but it ends NOW. Right now. It got so bad that I didn’t even weigh myself this morning. Yeah, that’s bad because I never not weigh myself.

So I’ve decided that I need to just throw myself back into it - balls to the wall. I’m gonna drink a ton of water this week - close to 2 gallons each day, no matter what. That will help flush out all the bad crap from my system. I don’t care if I need to pee every 5 or 10 minutes. I’ll deal with it.

I’m also going to work out hardcore. I’m really gonna bring my calorie burn up. I’m even going to take off from work on Friday to do this - that’s how I’m serious I am. If it means that I work out for 3-4 hours on Friday, then so be it. I’ll do everything and anything I need to do in order to get myself back on track. No ifs, ands, or butts. That’s just how it has to be.

I have to stop myself now before I do any permanent damage. I’m not sure what came over me this week. I am sure that it stops right now though. It has to, it’s got to. This is too important to continue the bad habits, and the bad food intake. I’m sure that I might be up 5 lbs. or so but I’m just gonna have to deal with it. I did what I did, I ate what I ate (lots of cheese & crackers, chicken fingers, an entire bag of Pirate Booty, lots of other bad things, etc.) and now it is over. OVER.

I feel a little better now that I’ve written this. Thanks for listening you guys. I love my bloggy friends!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Day 104. A different kind of post today.

This is going to be a different kind of post today. Because I binged.

I feel terrible.

I feel disgusting.

I want to throw up.

I feel so gross.

I binged today on Chinese food. Yes, binged. I binged on sweet & sour chicken, fried rice & fried dumplings.

It was delicious, and then it was terrible. All at the same time. It was fried. Just writing down what I ate makes me sick.

I just want to die, that's how awful & full I feel right now.

I knew exactly what I was doing, and yet, I could NOT stop.

I haven't binged in over 2 months. I thought I was past all of this. I thought I had finally gotten past the old habits, the old behavior, the old way of thinking.

But nope. Not even close.

I know now it's always going to be there - in the back of my mind. I know now I am not as strong as I thought I was. I know those old, nagging negative thoughts are not that far away from me.

I just want to cry. I am so mad at myself. I am so disappointed in myself.

I know how important this journey is. I know it's going to ALWAYS be important.

Did I tell you I worked out today? Yup, this morning. I did The Firm Power Sculpt WO with Allie Del Rio for 150 calories. And then everything went downhill from there.

How important is this journey? That seems to be the theme of late of so many blogs that I follow. The thing is, I know this journey is important, I know this journey is life or death. And today, I just didn't care. And I now I feel like crap. People are dying from this everyday. EVERYDAY. Including today.

Sean mentioned on his blog a lady by the name of Bethany whose blog I didn't know about til just now. Unfortunately, I didn't follow her and so I only know just a little bit about her. She had a heart condition, she fought all throughout her journey, and this weekend, it got the better of her. She passed away on Friday, of a heart attack.

This is how serious it is, people. It truly is life or death. And don't think it can't happen to you. Bethany was only 33 years old, with a husband and kids that now no longer have her in their lives. It is so sad. Please check out her blog when you have a minute and leave her family a few kind words:

I can't believe it. I can't believe that this is still where I'm at, I can't believe that now her poor kids don't have a mother anymore, I can't believe that she was only 2 years older than me. I can't believe that something like this awful tragedy has to happen in order for ppl like me to maybe, hopefully, FINALLY get it.

It's just terrible. Don't even feel like eating now. I just want to get into bed and forget this whole day.

At least I can start fresh right now. I can make good choices RIGHT NOW. So can you. You can start fresh right now if you need to. So let's all make good choices from now on.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Day 103.

Today was WI day, and I'm down 0.4. I said yesterday that i'll take whatever loss I could get, and I am. I have officially lost another point.

I'm really tired. I did work out today. I did 7 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then The Firm Get Chisel'd with Rebekah Sturkie. I burned 438 calories, and I'm happy with that number.

I'm not happy with how I ate today. Cheese & crackers are my enemy. They need to not be in my house. I can feel all the water I'm retaining now. Ugh. I was doing so well up until that point, too. Oh man. I'm disappointed in myself, but I can't let it control me or define me.

What was I thinking? The day started off really well, too. When Wendy & I ate went out to lunch, we decided that we would both have a salad, and then split a burger. We didn't even get cheese on it. We split the fries too, and then Wendy wanted dessert. That was the beginning of the end. We split a brownie sundae. Sigh. It was so good, and we both ate it with gusto. I didn't need to do that - in fact, I shouldn't have had it, because that was the start of it. Double sigh.

So that's where I'm at today. I can't wait for this day to be over. Tomorrow, super hardcore workout. I shudder to think how much the scale will be up tomorrow. I'm almost tempted not to even look at it, but I don't know if I'll be able to help myself. We'll see. I think I'll weigh myself. Yeah, definitely.

Well, if it means I have to work out for 2 hours tomorrow, then so be it. That's what I may need to do. So be it, I says. I'm soooo disappointed in myself. Stupid, stupid. Ok - I need to end this post now. Let's all make better choices than I did today.

Friday, March 19, 2010

Day 102.

Hi everyone,

I really struggled with my hunger today. I really felt like I wanted to eat anything & everything. I wanted salty & crunchy, then sweet & chocolatey. I felt like having potato chips, followed by Devil's Food cake with rich, chocolate frosting. Yeah, I don't know what it is. I'm not PMSing, I just want to eat. I went over my points today by 4, which is nothing terrible, but I pride myself on staying within my points every single day. I didn't even have junkSigh. And I haven't even written about my workout yet & that whole fiasco.

I call it a fiasco because I had to struggle again. You see, I came very close to not working out
at all today. I had to fight with my inner self again. I'm usually in my workout gear & working out by 5 PM. Today, I came home from work feeling exhausted. I just wanted to lay down & relax in front of the TV. And I did, before & after dinner. I was so not in the mood to work out. I can't pinpoint it on any one reason. I can't stand my job & the people I work with, but I try hard not to let that affect my mood. When I weighed myself this morning, I was the same as my Saturday WI, so maybe that was it. Finally, around 7:30, I said to myself, F#ck it - just work out already or you will feel like a total loser. So that's what I did. I didn't start working out til almost 8 PM tonight, and that is really late for me. Really, really late. I really had to psyche myself into doing it.

I didn't want to do the treadmill tonight. I needed a little bit of a change. So I started with PowerFit Cardio with Stephanie, then The Firm Ultimate Fat Burning Workout with Alison. I did some cardio on my own in between workouts. I did some low-impact with light weights, and some step too, and the stepping got my heart rate way up. I managed to burn 809 calories in my workout tonight. I knew I had to push it hard. I sweated like crazy, and I'm satisfied with my workout. I'm glad I did it. I don't feel as guilty as I would've if I hadn't worked out, you know.

This is why I'm posting this so late. Because I had to fight and struggle with myself today to do a lot of things. I struggled with my eating, with controlling my urges & old habits, I struggled to do the right things like working out, but in the end, I think I did ok. I just really hope it reflects on the scale tomorrow. I'm willing to take any loss anyway I can get it. That's where I'm at right now. I'll let you guys know tomorrow how I did.

I think I'll watch a little bit of the college basketball right now. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Day 101.

Today was a much needed rest day for me. I almost took it yesterday, but I sucked it up. I'm not even going to do ab work because I'm just not feeling it at all today. After work today, the plan was to get a mani, but I decided against it. Sometimes, I just don't have the patience to sit there waiting for my nails to dry. I opted for an eyebrow wax instead, which I kinda needed anyway. I also needed to get smoothies, so I went to the WW center. Smoothies are on sale for the rest of the month, so I'm gonna stock up while I can. LOL.

This weekend I'm taking Wendy out to lunch for her birthday. We're going to a restaurant by my job called the Barefoot Peddler. They have great burgers there, and we plan on splitting one together & having some salad. I'll take pictures, I swear! lol.

I have a feeling that this will be a short post because I am running out of things to write about. But before I go, check out Jack's blog. His post from today is great! He's a rockstar who's lost close to 100 lbs. I know, rite? Damn!

So on that note, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Day 100.

Today was a good day. Not great, but not awful either. I just felt so tired today. It was my long day at work, and it's hump day. I almost didn't work out either, but that's for another paragraph. I was just glad when work was over and I was able to go home. Hopefully the rest of the week will go by faster now.

Because I wasn't in the mood, I had to pick a short workout, or else I wasn't going to work out at all. So I started with 10 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then The Firm Cardio Sculpt Blaster with Lisa Kay. It's not an old mansion Firm workout, but I needed to do something short. I burned 355 calories. I'm ok with that number, considering I really had to force myself to work out today. I mean, I really had to talk myself into it.

What can I say? Some days are easier than others. Some days I can motivate myself more easily than others. My eating was perfect today. I stayed totally within my points, and I tracked everything in my journal. I'm not having a problem with food today, so I'm counting that as a major victory.

My dog Luke had been feeling a little under the weather yesterday, but he is fine now. Thank God. We were worried. He wasn't eating, his tail was down & his ears were back. Poor little guy. He started to perk up last night, and he was eating today. Phew. Crisis averted.

So I think I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Day 99.

On the eve of my 100th post, I am happy to report that today was another awesome day! Who was it that said beware the ides of March? Oh yeah, Shakespeare, and that was technically yesterday, wasn't it? Anywho, I managed to get up on time this morning to weigh myself. I was down a half pound from my Saturday WI, so I was real happy about that.

I've decided that my blog is woefully sparse, and this weekend I'm going to spruce it up a bit. I've decided that I'm going to also post my stats for this year so far, along with photos. I promise! LOL.

I have a special shout out to make to Bee. Bee, thanks for the special mention on your blog! I appreciate it. She's lost a ton of weight already, she's doing great, and so is her blog. You can find her over at: Thanks again, Bee! And thanks to my 2 brand new followers!

Let's discuss the workout. I made a quick stop at the supermarket to pick up some essentials, like salad bags, Perdue shortcuts, chicken breasts, & grape tomatoes. When I got home, I so did not feel like working out at all. You know the feeling - you just want to lay on the couch. But I knew I had to do it. My rest day isn't scheduled til Thursday, so not working out wasn't an option. I just sucked it up. Put on the workout gear, & jumped on the inclined treadmill for 20 minutes. I was pouring sweat practically from the beginning. Then I did The Firm Tough Tape 2. It was my first time ever doing that particular workout, and it was tough. Mostly sculpting, which brought my heart rate way up. Those Fanny Lifter climbs are killer. I could only use 5 lb. weights for that. But, the good news is I burned 637 calories. Yeah, definitely happy with that number! Um, I didn't attempt the ab section at all. I know, I know, but I was just so worn out that I didn't even bother. Well, I promise that whichever Firm workout I do tomorrow, I will also do the ab section. Promise!

Ok, with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. LOST is on!! Let's all make good choices.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Day 98.

Today was another super, on program day. Unfortunately, I woke up late and I couldn't weigh myself this morning. I was really curious to know if I had taken off that pound of water weight or not. Oh well. No big deal. I'll make sure to get up on time tomorrow. It's funny, because I never oversleep. I woke up around 5 AM to pee, and usually, I don't fall back asleep. I just kinda lay in bed with my eyes closed til it's time to get up. But this morning, I fell asleep because I remember having weird dreams. Oh well. On time tomorrow, I promise!

The rain looks like it's finally gonna let up. About time. Ugh. I hope tomorrow is nice, but I guess we'll see. So let's talk about the workout. Today I chose to do a short workout, but one that I knew would give me a big calorie burn. So I started with 15 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then The Firm Parts: Not-So-Tough Aerobics. It's a compilation of early Firm workouts, and I'm glad I did it. I burned 537 calories, and I was pouring sweat the whole time! I'm really happy with that number. The truth is, I would've been happy with 400 calories burned.

I'm listening to U2 on my iTunes now. I love that band, but their last few efforts, not so much. Their stuff from the 80s & early-mid 90s is awesome. Anywho, I'm running out of things to write about now. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Day 97.

Today was a lazy Sunday afternoon. It thundered & poured in the morning, and then drizzled on & off the rest of the day. Yet another miserable, gloomy day. Shrug. Because of Daylight Savings time, missing that hour really messed me up today. It took me forever to get going, to work out. Finally, around 11 AM, after putzing around for an hour & half, I decided it was time to work out.

So after having a cup of coffee, I put on the work out gear, did 15 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then popped in The Firm Strength with Pam Cauthen. Pam has led other Firm videos where she looks scary skinny. This is one of the older Firms, so she has a little more meat on her bones, but she's still thin. Anywho, I burned 590 calories, and I even finished the ab section at the end - the bane of my existence! LOL. I'm real happy with that number, I really am. I worked out hard today because I was up a pound from yesterday. Nothing to freak out about, I'm probably just retaining water. Must've been the bagel & the meatloaf from yesterday. I know it could've been a lot worse. I'll take only being up a pound tho. I plan on having it off by tomorrow.

Another super on program day, tracked everything in my journal, and I stayed within my points. Didn't go over at all, and I think that'll help with my water weight. I drank a whole boatload of water today, and I know that will help, too. I had some Chinese for lunch today, but I kept it healthy - chicken & brocolli with brown rice, and a cup of eggdrop soup. I was full & satisfied.

I can't believe the weekend is over already. Work tomorrow. What a pain in the ass. Oh wells. I think I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Day 96.

Hi everyone,

I had a fantastic WI this morning, but I didn't stay for the meeting because it was pouring outside. I lost 2.2 lbs. this week! Holla! LOL. Yeah, so I am very, very happy with that, as you can tell. And I am very happy to report that there has been no celebratory eating. But, I did have half of an everything bagel with some real cream cheese, but I split it with my parents because I just didn't want to take the hit on the points. I've been craving an everything bagel for a while, and it's been forever since I've had one, so I figured that eating half of one wouldn't be terrible. And I enjoyed it even more just knowing that it was ok to have that bagel every once in a while. Just no over doing.

So today turned out to be an unexpected DOR for me. I was supposed to work out, but I realized that if I had taken my rest day tomorrow, as I had originally planned, then it meant that I would've had to work out Monday-Thursday, with my rest day on Friday, the day before Saturday WI. I don't like to do that because I consider Friday to be my last chance workout, you know. I have my workout tomorrow already planned. The inclined treadmill, then an old Firm workout that I've never done. Firm Strength with Pam Cauthen. Today, my whole body is sore, with the exception of my abs. But fear not ppl: - I am going - DEFINITELY going to do some ab work tonight. I have my Ab Roller all set and ready for a quick ab workout. Just waiting for dinner to digest & I'll be up & at it in about 30 minutes.

It is pouring outside, and it's just so miserable. I can't stand this weather, but I suppose it's better than having to shovel snow, right? Oh wells. On a brighter note, I'm really happy about my weight loss this week. I have decided that my only cheat day will be Saturdays. That's it. And it won't be an all day cheat day thing. Absolutely not. I just can't afford to do that anymore, and I don't want to. It's just not worth it, you know. I seem to get better results when I do Mansion Firm workouts, so that's the plan for this week. Yes, they are cheesy, they are wearing leotards & hightops, and let's not forget the leg warmers, but they are tough man! Real tough! I get a big calorie burn with them, so there you go.

Ok - I'm gonna watch a little TV while doing my Ab Roller in a bit. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Friday, March 12, 2010

Day 95.

I am feeling really confident and focused right now. I like this feeling, I really do. Too bad it sometimes does not last all day long, everyday, you know. The point is, I'm feeling this way now, so let's just enjoy it.

It was a gloomy day today, because the rain started. And it won't stop til Sunday. Great times, for real. I think I may have mentioned that in yesterday's post. Ok, time to move along from the weather.

The workout today was supposed to be The Firm Upper Body Split, but after previewing the DVD, I decided I hated it. There was way too much ab work for a supposedly upper body workout. So I just decided to Firm Parts Upper Body instead. I love that workout - I don't ever get tired of it. I started with 20 minutes on the inclined treadmill. I can't believe I never used the incline before this - what a waste of time! I was pouring sweat all over my body when I was done. Then I did the Firm DVD, but I felt that maybe I should try to incorporate some ab work since again, I haven't been doing it lately. So I popped in my old Abs of Steel tape with Tamilee Webb, and did about 7 minutes of it. In the end, I burned 522 calories! Very, very happy with that number. I made sure to stay away from salt today as much as possible since I don't want it to affect my WI tomorrow.

My quads, thighs, & glutes are sore from yesterday's workout. That can only be a good thing, though. Already, I'm feeling my shoulders getting sore, too. Good times, good things. I'm running out of things to talk about again, so I'm just gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Day 94.

Another super on program day! I think it has something to do with the fact that when I weighed myself this morning I was down almost 2 lbs!! Go me! I'm real happy about that. Real happy. It probably had something to do with the workout last night, which proves that those old Mansion workouts really work you hard.

Let's talk about the workout. As usual, I started with 10 minutes on the inclined treadmill. My HRM was giving me some problems because it didn't want to pick up my heart rate. Ugh. Then I decided on Firm Crosstrainers - Lower Body Split. My legs felt like jelly after I was done. They really like their lunges & dips in this particular DVD. In total, I burned 526 calories, and I didn't stop sweating the whole time. Man, was I glad when I was done. Wonder how my legs will feel tomorrow. I'll let you guys know.

It feels good to be on program and losing weight, but every once in a while, I feel like having something I normally wouldn't have. Like chips or something. I usually reserve that for the weekend, though. And this weekend I'm supposed to take Wendy out for her birthday, but it's supposed to pour & thunderstorm all day, so we'll see if that happens or not. I'm taking her to Cracker Barrel, a place we both have never been to before. I hope the food's good. It looked good online.

I can't wait for tomorrow. I'm glad it'll be Friday. And so, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Day 93.

This morning was the start of TOM, but the good news is that I was also down a half pound from Saturday's WI! Yes! And that's after a rest day, so that's really good. I'm hoping this week will be the week that I get out of the 230s. We'll see. It will mean losing another point, but I'm ok with that.

Today was my long day at work, but I knew when I got home that I needed to do a nice long workout. So I began with 15 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Fat Blaster. It's a great workout DVD, even though they are dressed in leotards & hightop sneakers & the music is cheesy. I love old Firm workouts. They are the best, they really are. I burned 537 calories, and I was pouring sweat the whole time. I only completed about 3 minutes of the ab section because I was so tired.

I'm previewing a Firm DVD that I've had forever but have never done - Lower Body Split. It looks kinda hard, but I'm thinking of doing it tomorrow. Friday I may do Upper Body Split. That's another DVD that I've had forever and have never done. LOL. In fact, both were still wrapped in plastic until just now. I know, that's bad, isn't it? These Firm workouts are seriously no joke. They don't mess around at all, which is what I love about them.

I'm really excited about this 5K challenge on April 17. Jen had a great idea with that. I've decided on my race for that day. It's going to benefit the athletic department of a local high school. I think that's a great cause. It falls on a Saturday morning, which means I have to be up super early if I want to go to my WW meeting later. I'm going to WI at a WW center that's near the race. I can't wait. I am definitely not going to miss this race! LOL.

OK, so I think I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Day 92.

Hi everyone,

So this morning, when I weighed myself, I was back down to my Saturday morning WI weight at WW. Go me! I really worked out hard yesterday, and I guess it paid off, because it showed on the scale. What a relief.

Today was my rest day from working out, so I decided to get a mani & pedi after work. It felt really nice to be pampered. Sometimes you need it, every once in a while. Especially because sometimes there's just no time for it at all.

When I got home from my mani & pedi, I discovered that I received two more notification letters from the schools that I had applied to. Well, it's official - CUNY Grad Center & American University did not accept my application for the PhD program. That only leaves GWU, and I'm losing hope. This really sucks. This kind of bad news could've triggered some old bad habits. But I didn't take it there. Which is a great thing & a huge NSV. (Patting myself on the back.)

The news still hasn't quite hit me yet, but I have a feeling I may be crying later tonight, like while watching Biggest Loser, or LOST. I had all this nervous energy, so I decided to do something completely out of character for me. I decided to work out my abs. I know, right!? WTF? LOL. I popped in an old Tamilee Webb Abs of Steel DVD. It was cheesy, but I'm glad I did it. My abs did hurt a little, but it's fine. Nothing I couldn't work through, you know.

Today was a good day, considering the bad news I got. I'm starting to get a little bummed, but I'll get through it. I have to, I don't have a choice after all. This is just another part of the journey.

Jen over at gave me a really great idea. She is running a 5K on April 17 whose cause is to fight obesity in Minneapolis, where she lives. She said that those of us who can't join her in Minneapolis should find a 5K, any 5K, to run that same day. So that is what I'm gonna do. And this time - I'm gonna do it! I've already run 2 5Ks, so I know I can do it. There are 2 5K's running that day, so I just have to pick. I'll get back to you later with the deets.

I need to focus my attention on this upcoming challenge from Jen. It's gonna be great, and hopefully the weather will be nice the day of the race. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Day 91.

I was thinking today about how important this journey is, and how easy or hard I can choose to make it. If I binge on pizza & cheeseburgers, then it's hard because I let my stupidity and my old habits win. If I choose to stick to program, then it's easy because it means I am conquering my old habits and ways. And my old way of thinking.

Yesterday, I just had too much sodium in my daily points, so I am retaining water. BUT - and here's the important thing - I refuse, absolutely refuse to let it get the best of me. Retaining water happens, especially because this week TOM will be here. But I am determined to get it off and then some. This week is gonna be great - I can just feel it!

The workout today was pretty awesome, which is how I know this week will go well. Even though today was my long day at work, I decided to do a long workout. Usually, I only get in about 30-45 minutes on my long days. Today though, I knew I had to push it. So I did. I stared with The Firm Cardio Sculpt Blaster with Lisa Kay. It's a short workout, so I did some stepping on my own for about 10 minutes. That brought my calorie burn up, which was great. Then I decided that I've been woefully ignoring working out my abs, so I decided to do Day 1 of Firm Abs with Nancy Tucker. It was pretty easy, so onto another workout. 15 minutes on the inclined treadmill, which brought my calorie burn to 551 calories! I was pouring sweat, and I was just really feeling it today. I usually don't feel it ever. LOL.

I'm satisfied with how today went. Stayed completely within my points, and that's just an added bonus, you know. Tomorrow will be a rest day, and I've decided that I need to go for a mani & pedi after work. It was such a nice day, all sunny & breezy, which reminded me that it's going to be sandal season in no time, hopefully. So my toes need to look nice. Hehe.

Ok, I'm running out of things to say, so I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Day 90.

It was so pretty outside today, sunny & not a cloud in the sky at all. So my Mom & I went upstate to visit Sonia. She's getting so big, and she's so cute! Love that kid. Anywho, last night after my post I had some Pirate Booty. It's actually not all that bad for you, I just wouldn't recommend eating it, then going to bed shortly thereafter, which is what I did. So I was up a little bit this morning, but nothing terrible, to tell ya the truth. Just 1.5 lbs. I can deal with that.

I knew that the workout today had to be hard core & driven. I think this week I may go back to doing Mansion workouts again. Just because they seem to work me harder. This morning my arms, shoulders & sides were sore from having done Cardio Sculpt with Allie. That's a good feeling, because I don't always get that sore feeling in my sides, where my lats are. I decided to do The Firm Bust & Butt. It's a compilation of old Firm Mansion workouts, and it's pretty good - if you can get past the leotards, the leg warmers, and the high tops. LOL. I started with 15 minutes on the inclined treadmill first, then did the DVD. Oh my Lord, I was pouring sweat after the inclined treadmill. And then during the DVD, I swear I felt my hair sweating. Yup. Major sweating action going on. I burned 578 calories, and I'm more than happy with that number. LOL.

My eating today could've been a little better, but I didn't binge or anything. We picked up food from the Colombian restaurant, which wasn't really bad, it's just the portions could've been a little smaller. Shrug. The rice & beans were really good, especially the beans. That might have something to do with the fact that they were cooked with some pork. I did get in all of my daily requirements today, so I'm not really feeling all that bad about it. Especially considering the workout today. I mean, I was pouring sweat and working hard, and it's not like I ate an entire pizza or chocolate cake all by myself. Those days are over, baby!

I'm feeling really good, really positive. And I'm also kinda exhausted from all that driving today. So I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Day 89.

Today has been going smoothly. It started off really well, also. I was down 1.4 lbs. at WI this morning! (Cue the applause & trumpets.) I'm at 231.8 - AGAIN. But, it's much better than the 0.8 last week. So I'm more than good with that. Just need to be careful and vigilant on the weekends, because that's where I seem to go off track.

Speaking of which, as I write this, I've totaled up my points and have found that I've gone over my daily allowance by 7! Whoa. Yeah, I enjoyed a cheeseburger for lunch with a pickle & some mac & cheese, then had a slice of pizza with salad for dinner. I'm craving cheese right now because TOM is coming this week. But, I did workout pretty hardcore today, so it's not so bad.

So let's discuss the workout. I started with 10 minutes on the inclined treadmill, and I was already pouring sweat when I stepped off. Then I decided to do a Firm DVD that I hadn't done in just about forever - Cardio Sculpt with Allie Del Rio. Yeah, it's been months & months since I've done that DVD, so I thought I would give it a whirl. And yes, I even completed the ab section at the end, although I did have to modify it somewhat for my woeful beginner level. In total, I burned 511 calories, and I poured sweat the whole time. I even got some sweat in my eye at one point, and that was not pleasant at all. It stinged a little, but I got over it real quick, you know.

Oh, and some good news - I'm almost done with my thesis statement! I've decided that I won't be going to bed tonight until it's done, or atleast, more than 90% done. The rest I could finish tomorrow after we get back from my brother's house. I can't wait to see Sonia again. She is just so adorable I can't stand it. LOL. Everyone tells me she looks like me, but I can't really see it. Oh wells.

Oh, and just a quick update on my dog Luke. My mother took him to the vet today for a follow up visit. He's fine, and the vet removed the bandage from his paw. It's getting better, and it definitely looks a whole lot better. But I caught him licking it today, so the fabric E-Collar had to go on him. It messed with his equilibrium a little, and he looked all out of sorts when he was walking around with it on. So after my WW meeting, I went to CVS & bought some gauze & waterproof tape to bandage his paw - AGAIN. My bandage job doesn't look nearly as good as the vet's, but it'll do. I figure I'll change it again tomorrow, and then Monday take it off completely. If he licks it, the E-Collar goes back on. Silly Yorkie.

I'm really happy with how my week went, and I have to make sure to stay positive & focused this coming week. I indulged a little today, and that's fine, but best to nip it in the bud before it snowballs, you know. Oh, and I promise - I will post some pictures tomorrow, although I don't really know how to do that on here. So wish me luck with that & with finishing up my statement. The next step is to buckle down & write the thesis. The good news is I won't really be starting from scratch since I will be retooling & tweaking an earlier paper I wrote that is about 20 pages long. Just have to add more things & information to it.

So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Day 88.

Another great day is in the books! Let's hope Blogger doesn't screw up in not saving this post like they did last night. That was aggravating. Anywho, enough about that. It's been a great day, with more positive thinking and just focusing on the goal. Tracking everything in my journal is an option that is not open for discussion. I ALWAYS do it, even when I've eaten like a pig. I feel strange if I don't write everything down. And I ALWAYS have my journal with me. No matter what.

I knew that today's workout had to be hardcore. So I just went for it, balls to the wall. LOL. I decided to do Jillian's Banish Fat Boost Metabolism. My calorie burn when I finished was at about 430 or so, but I wanted more. So I went onto the inclined treadmill for 25 minutes. I finished with a total calorie burn of 653 calories. I am more than happy with that number. And I really hope that my hard work this week will show up on the scale tomorrow morning. But I know that I have to accept whatever the scale says. And I know I'll be down this week, so it's just a matter of how much, you know.

I just have to focus on thinking positively, even when I get some not so great news. I heard from Georgetown today about my PhD application, and I didn't get in. Oh well. What are u gonna do. It is what it is. I'm still waiting to hear from CUNY, American & GWU, so cross your fingers.

So, it's the night before WI, and I'm actually nervous. I don't know why. I'm really hoping that this coming week will be the last week I will be in the 230s. Enough is enough. Any of you going through your own weight loss journey will understand that feeling, I'm sure. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Day 87.

Another great day! I wish everyday could be like this, you know. Just totally on track, completely focused, and looking forward to a great WI on Saturday. I won't get my hopes up.

Well, I had a post all done, but Blogger screwed up and didn't save it correctly! UGH. I'm just going to sum up real quick what I wrote. Basically, I'm feeling really good, really positive, focused & on program. I love it!

Today was a day of rest for me, and I ran some errands after work. Got an oil change, went to the grocery store, etc.

My dog Luke woke up with a limp this morning. His paw was infected because he started licking it, and wouldn't stop. My mother took him to the vet around the corner from my house, and they had to drain his paw, which made him cry. They also gave him a shot of antibiotics and sent us home with more pills for him. He'll be fine.

OK - I'm still really pissed off at Blogger right now, so I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Day 86.

So far, so good. I know I keep saying that, but that's just how it's been lately. Now don't get me wrong, I still have my slip ups, but I am NOT letting those slip ups define me as a person. And, I don't hold onto them like I used to. I guess that's why this time around on my weight loss journey feels so different. I know that there is hope, and that there will be light at the end of the tunnel. I know that there will be an end - which is me reaching my goal. Now, don't misunderstand me. I know that the journey does not end once I hit goal. It's going to continue for the rest of my life. This is a way of living, after all.

Today was my long day at work, which meant that I had to do a short workout today. The inclined treadmill is a fantastic thing. I burned 100 calories in just under 10 minutes, and I was sweating. Then I did The Firm Fat Blasting Cardio with Lisa Kay. And I burned 401 calories, so I'm very, very happy with that! Pouring sweat the whole time, lemme tell ya.

When I got on the scale this morning I was down a half pound, and of course I was more than happy with that! I'm hoping this week's loss will be a little better than last week's. But I have to remind myself that any loss is a great loss. So there! LOL.

I'm feeling good, I have to say. I'm feeling good about my choices, I'm feeling good, period. Living and leading a healthy lifestyle is all a choice. SO with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Day 85.

Another great day is in the books. I was completely on program today, and I did not go over my points at all. And, even more good news - when I got on the scale this morning, I was back to my Saturday weight. I should probably stop weighing myself everyday, but I can't help it. This means I have the rest of the week to lose weight. And I need to accept the weight loss - no matter how small & disappointing it might be to me - and accept that any weight loss is great. Whether it's 0.8 or 0.4 - a loss is a loss. Period.

I wanted to do an hour workout today, and this time, I did not start late. LOL. I started with 11 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then The Firm Complete Aerobic Weight Training with Emily Welsh. And yes, I did the ab section at the end! LOL. Again, I had to modify some of the moves, but I did it. My abs were definitely burning by the time I was done, but that's a good thing! It's a good sign, after all. And, I burned 521 calories.

I was sweating a lot. I think that warming up on the inclined treadmill for a few minutes really revs up my workout. I'm sweating after only 10 minutes. And it's pouring sweat, down my face, down my back, down the front of my chest. The inclined treadmill is a great tool, and I'm only sorry that I didn't start using it til only recently. Oh wells. Shoulda, coulda. woulda.

I'm very happy with how this week is going so far. Now, I know it's only Tuesday, but so far, so good. Just trying to stay positive and stay focused. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Day 84.

Today was another great day. And considering that it was Monday & I was busy at work all day, I'll take it. Usually Mondays suck, don't they? Not this time, though.

This will be a short post because I'm tired. And it was a long day. So the workout was a short one. I started with 10 minutes on the treadmill, then The Firm Jiggle Free Buns with Pam Cauthen Meriwether. Pam is freakishly, scary skinny in this DVD. It's not a good look for any woman when your ribs are poking out through a layer of skin. Seriously. I burned 362 calories, and I was pouring sweat practically the whole time. There's a segment called Hot-Cross Buns on the TransFirmer that I think I finally got down pat. It's only taken me like 3 years. LOL.

I used the incline on the treadmill today, and I've been doing that lately. In fact, everytime I've done the treadmill recently, it's only been on the incline. I think I'm burning more calories more quickly when I do that. And I certainly do not have any problem with that!

Ok, that is enough babbling. I can't wait to get into bed tonight. hehe. So with that said, I'm gonna wrap this one up. Let's all make good choices.