Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Day 540.

The realtor contacted me via email today, and she said the owners are willing to meet me halfway. This translates to a final price of $10K less than what they listed it for. So I told her I would think about it and let her know soon.

This might actually happen. And I am scared shitless. It's a huge responsibility, financially, emotionally, physically. I'm scared. But, things are still up in the air, so we'll see what happens.

I delayed my workout until after dinner. I just couldn't psych myself up enough to do it. In the end, I'm glad I did it at all and got it over with. I did 20 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did heavy sculpting on my own for 35 minutes. Lots lunges, squats, dips, lat rows, upright rows, hammer curls, leg presses, French press, military press, delt flies, and dead lifts. I didn't follow a plan or a circuit, which I probably should've done, but it doesn't matter. I still worked out hard, pouring sweat. I burned 564 calories. See?
I had a good day today. Tracked everything, stayed within my points, and I got in all of my requirements. Feeling in the zone again, and it feels great.

Wrapping up now. Thanks for reading. And make good choices!

Monday, May 30, 2011

Day 539 - Happy Memorial Day!

Happy Memorial Day! First, I have to start off by thanking all of our men and women in uniform who dedicate their lives to protecting us. I understand freedom is not free - there is always a price. Those of our soldiers who are lost or killed in action, I'm thinking of you today.

It was nice being off work today. I'm so not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow. Ugh.

It was really hot today. So hot that I had to set up the AC in my room. I just couldn't take it anymore. hehe But I set it up after my workout.

Nice little segue there. I started with 22 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Boomers Workout with Jayne Poteet. I burned 853 calories, pouring some major sweat the whole time. Don't believe me? Take a look!
My sports bra was soaking wet. I couldn't wait to take a shower! lol.

So my realtor called me back today, saying that the owners had counter-offered and they were refusing to take less than a certain amount. Their bottom line really made me scratch my head, since the real estate market is in the crapper. Are they really in any position to do that? It's a buyer's market right now, for eff's sake! So I talked with her, and I told her that I would think about it and get back to her soon. I called my brother, who told me to just keep low balling them, and if they refuse to budge, to just move on. Something better will come along. My realtor emailed me, and I sort of felt that she was trying to pressure me into accepting their offer, which I really did NOT like at all. I emailed her back saying you know what - if they refuse to budge, nothing I can do about it. I will just keep my options open. I left it at that. We'll see what happens. I will keep you guys updated, but I have to say, I'm not fond of this whole business of buying a condo. Whatever. I refuse to be pressured into anything.

Good day today. I tracked everything in my journal, stayed within my points, and got in all of my requirements.

Wrapping this one up now. Thanks for reading. And make good choices people!

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Days 537 & 538.

So yesterday I went to look at 3 condos. And I made an offer on one of them - the one where I hated the kitchen. I went $15K below the asking price in the hopes that the owners will be willing to negotiate. It's a holiday weekend, and the owners are away until Tuesday. So we'll see what happens.

I jumped the gun a little bit today, and I decided to buy some stuff that I'll need for when I finally move out. I need a lot of stuff, but I've decided to buy a few items every week. So today I bought a dish set, a set of 4 water goblets, and flatware. I used 3 coupons and managed to save $22. Next week I'm going to get a coffee pot, bath towels & a bath mat. The big stuff, like all the furniture I have to buy, will have to wait until after I close, if I want to be smart about it, you know.

We've been hit with a heat wave of sorts lately, and I still don't have the AC set up in my room yet. So today when I worked out, I was sweating like a crazy. I started with 25 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Maximum Body Shaping with Tracie Long. And I burned 936 calories, huffing & puffing all throughout my workout. Wanna see?
That is real sweat, people. I really need to get back into working out on a regular basis. I had a very good start today, and I hope to get in another great workout tomorrow.

Good day today. As soon as I post this, I'm going to set up my AC because it's supposed to get a lot hotter later this week. No good for me, I hate the heat & humidity. I sweat like a pig within 5 minutes of being outside. Ick.

Wrapping this one up now. Thanks for reading. And make good choices.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Days 535 & 536.

Sorry again for the double post. I promise I will be better about posting from now on.

Ever since the wedding, I've been in a funk. At first, Wendy's pushing me towards her former coworker got on my nerves. Which led to no working out and bad food choices. Then it got me to thinking about where I'll be in the future. Single? Involved? Married? And I started to hate myself for even thinking that. I really am fine being single. How many times have I said that in the last week? Enough is enough.

So i decided to concentrate on some other IMPORTANT stuff. Like buying a condo. Tomorrow, I've planned with my realtor lady to look at 3 places - 2 of them are on the 1st floor, and 1 is on the 2nd floor. The one on the 2nd floor has an amazing kitchen - wooden cabinets & granite counter tops. The very first one I'll be seeing is actually one that I've seen already, and it's still on the market. However, it needs some work. Like the kitchen I'd want to redo completely. The funny thing is, my friends & co workers I've showed the photos to, have all said they love the kitchen. And the color scheme. Bright yellow walls in the kitchen & living room, and pastel blue in the bedroom. Gag me.

The other one on the first floor has been completely redone. All I would have to do is paint the bedroom. Kitchen has wooden cabinets & granite countertop. Even the bathroom has been renovated. I don't think I'd have to do anything except move in. This condo has been on the market for more than 6 months, and I'm really hoping that the present owners would be willing to negotiate somewhat. This one could be the one, and I'm scared shitless. I also feel that I will probably never be able to afford anything again for the rest of my life when I buy a condo. Sigh.

Oh, and all 3 are in the same complex, which is pet friendly, and comes with access to an Olympic sized pool, dog run & play ground. All 3 also have beautiful hard wood flooring.

I worked out for the first time since the wedding. I decided to forgo doing a Firm DVD and just concentrate on the inclined treadmill instead. Which I did, for 30 minutes. I didn't strap on my HRM, but it was ok. I sweated like a pig, and got those endorphins flowing. Wanna see?
Other than looking at condos tomorrow, I have no other plans this weekend. We're supposed to have nice weather here, warm & humid, so at least it won't be miserable. Rain gets on my nerves.

That's about it for now, gonna wrap this one up. Thanks for reading. And make good choices!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Days 533 & 534.

You guys are awesome, I just have to say that right off the bat. I love you guys so much! Seriously, I don't know what I would do without you guys. Your support has meant the world to me!

I've been trying to not think about the wedding anymore. And in an effort to do that, I've been throwing myself full force the last two days into looking for my condo. Enough is enough. I have to move out, I have to be on my own already.

I'm very particular about the kind of condo I want. I'd like to be on the first floor. This way, I can make as much as noise stomping around as I want and not have to worry about annoying the person that lives below me. lol. I want hardwood floors, which most of the places I'm looking at have already. And the kitchen has to be great. If it's got granite countertops already, even better, because it means less work that I have to do, and spend money on. I definitely want nice granite countertops, and wood kitchen cabinets. With glass. The kitchens in condos are small, so hopefully, even if I have to do some work to the kitchen, maybe it won't cost me an arm and a leg. One can only hope.

Anywho, that's what I've been up to the last two days. That, and planning on buying tickets to Fitbloggin 2012. Because there is no way I'm missing out on that next year. I've been looking at Kenlie's photos that she took with all of my favorite bloggers, and I can't help but feel the slightest twinge of jealousy. I admit it. hehe. So as soon as those tickets go on sale, I'm whipping out my credit card and buying it.

Ok, I'm wrapping this one up now. I hope to get back to working out soon, because I actually kinda miss it. Strange, I know.

Have you been watching Game of Thrones? I am completely obsessed with that show. I freaking love me some Sean Bean. lol.

Ok - nite people. It's getting late. And thanks again for all of your lovely supportive comments!

Monday, May 23, 2011

Day 532.

There's something I have to talk about that I didn't yesterday. It's about the dress.

Towards the end of the reception, the zipper got stuck and then it broke. Gigi, one of the bridesmaids, thankfully noticed it, and she tied the sash so that it wouldn't be noticed.

When the reception was over, and we were all changing, I asked Debbie to unzip me so I could get out of the dress. It wasn't happening. The zipper was broken. Which meant, to me anyway, that my body had broken the fucking zipper.

I started to panic. How was I going to get out of this dress? Debbie, Wendy & I went into the bathroom of the bridal suite where Wendy changed, and Debbie helped me out of the dress. Wanna know how she helped me? I had to lift my arms up, and she literally had to pull the dress over my head. The best part was when she practically had to feel me up to lift the dress over my chest.

I was so embarrassed, and so humiliated. I was covering my chest with my arms, and standing in just my Spanx in front of these 2 rail thin girls. They left so I could change into my regular clothes.

Wendy, Carlton, Phil (one of his groomsmen) & his wife left ahead us to go to the after party. I decided right then & there not to go. I was exhausted, I was embarrassed, I was miserable, and if I had gone, I would've had an awful time. Instead, I put on a brave face, said goodbye to everyone, and hopped into a cab to get home. I texted her while I was in the cab saying I wasn't going to the after party, and she was fine with it. But I couldn't tell her the reason. As close as we are, I know she wouldn't fully understand because she doesn't have a problem with food the way I do.

When I got home, exhausted & miserable, I looked in the mirror, and cried. For about 5 minutes. Then I took a shower, changed into my pjs, and went to bed.

I didn't talk about this yesterday because it was still too raw for me. Today, I had to let it out. I texted Kenlie about it, and she was really supportive. She told me that she had no idea how miserable I was by looking at the photos I posted. She said I looked like I was having a great time, and that's true to a certain extent. But I've had years of practice at hiding it. And I really didn't want to shit all over Wendy's big day, because it wasn't about me. I would hate it if she had done that if it were my big day.

I actually cried a little when I texted Kenz, and a little just now when I was writing this out. Major fail.

My feet are still cut up from those fucking heels. Those I put in the trash too, along with that fucking dress. I just want it out of my house, I never want to see them again.

I felt like a zombie today, from the lack of sleep. It really felt like I was moving in slow motion all day. I hope I can get some sleep tonight. It felt good to let this out a little. Le sigh.

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Day 531 - Wedding Pics

Here are some pics of the wedding. Sorry if some of them are blurry.

This photo is of me & Debbie, one of the other bridesmaids. And yes, I was the only non-Asian in the entire wedding party. It's fine.

I'm so glad it's over. It was a lovely ceremony, and the weather was perfect. And she looked beautiful, didn't she?

You know what I'm not fine with, besides the fact that I look so much larger than the other bridesmaids? (Don't even get me started on that.) I'll tell you what. Wendy had invited one of her former co-workers, Ryan, and she was positive I would like him. I met him, he introduced himself to me, we exchanged pleasantries for about a minute, and then nothing. I didn't feel anything. I got more chemistry passing by a lamp post than I did meeting this guy. He wasn't physically repulsive or anything, just not my type.

And then when I told her I wasn't impressed, she was more disappointed than I was. There's more, believe me. At one point during the reception, Wendy, Debbie & I retreated to the bridal suite to help Wendy change into her second wedding dress. And to take a break from the reception. Our feet were killing us. So we were just talking, bullshitting. Debbie complimented me on my jewelry. I was wearing my Colombian emerald set. I never wear jewelry.

And I was showing off my ring, which I absolutely love. See?
It's an emerald-cut emerald with 2 little diamonds on each side. I showed Debbie my ring, Wendy has seen it before. Anyway, I said if & when I ever get engaged, this is what I'd like my engagement ring to look like. You would've thought I had said the most unthinkable thing in the whole world. They were both like, how can you say that, of course it'll happen, blah, blah. I wished I hadn't said anything. I was just like, um yeah, ok.

I'm getting really sick of saying over & over that I'm OK WITH BEING SINGLE. I'm ok with never getting married. I mean please. If I want to be treated like shit, I'll get married.

So it's done now, and I never want to talk about it again. In fact, I've already thrown the dress into the trash, because I never want to see it again. I don't care about donating it. Who would wear something like that anyway? My feet are all cut up from the shoes too. Last night, when I got home, I couldn't even feel my feet. I changed into flip flops about an hour & a half into the reception. And it wasn't soon enough for me.

Ok - I'm sick of talking about this. Have a nice night. I'm settling in to watch Game of Thrones now. Just remind me that if I ever do get married, I'm going to City Hall & calling it a fucking day.

Day 530 - It's Over!

Wedding is done! I'm so relieved.

I'm so exhausted tho, and a little emotional right now. I'll explain later because I can't keep my eyes open. I will say this though - I really wish people would understand that I am more than fine with being single. I am more than fine with not ever getting married.

I've said too much without explaining, and right now I just don't have the energy to go into detail.

I'll try to post pics tomorrow, which is another thing. I hate how I look in photos. Especially when the other 2 bridesmaids were rail thin compared to me. Ugh.

More later, I promise.

Friday, May 20, 2011

Day 529 - Almost OVer.

And when I say almost over, I mean this wedding, not the end of the world.

Gotta run. I'm taking the train into NYC, then to the hotel, then tomorrow is the big day.

The Big Long Ass Day.

More tomorrow. I'll try to post pics if I'm not too exhausted. If you follow me on Twitter, I'll see if I can tweet pics too.

Bye til tomorrow.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Day 528 - Pain in My Neck.

I have a major pain in my neck. Literally.

I noticed it yesterday, and I didn't think anything of it. Today though, it's a lot worse. I can't turn to look over my right shoulder. And it hurts if I have to bend down for any reason.

I've tried rolling my shoulders and my neck around, and it helps a little, but mostly it just hurts.

This sucks. I can pinpoint this on the goddamn wedding, I'm telling ya. I can almost guarantee that it's the stress of getting this thing over with already. God, I sound horrible. I'm a horrible best friend. And yet, I can't help but think to myself that 48 hours from now, it will be all over. I'm a terrible person and there's a special place in hell for people like me.

Lyndsay was kind enough to give me the Stylish Blogger Award. The rules are you have to give it and pass it on to 15 people. I can't pick 15 people, so I'll say everybody that's reading this wins it! Thanks Lyndsay!

I am so sick and tired of this neck pain. I'm taking a Tylenol PM in a little while and hitting the sack. Nite people!

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Day 527.

When I got home from work today, I was so tired that I actually took a nap. For an hour. I can't even remember the last time I did that. I guess I really needed it because I was out for an hour. The weather helped the nap along, because it's been pouring rain here all day.

Blimey, as the British would say. I just hope the nap doesn't effect my sleeping later tonight. I guess I'll tell you about it tomorrow if it does.

Today at work, I wrote my MOH toast in like 5 minutes. I'm keeping it short & sweet, I'm not making it a marathon speech or anything, it's just a quick congratulatory toast. I have the draft saved on my computer at work, but I don't want to publish it here until after the wedding. I soo can't wait for this to be all over. And yes, I know it could be worse.

Before I sign off, have you guys checked out cnn.com or msnbc.com today? Kenlie is featured on both sites - the news shows interviewed her today about her Southworst Airlines ordeal. If you haven't checked them out, please do so. I'm so proud of her for turning this into something positive. I hope something can be learned from what she went through.

Good day for me today, even though I felt as if I were a walking zombie all day. I couldn't wait to take that nap, I'm telling ya. I tracked everything, I got in all of my requirements, and now, I'm going to settle in to watch the rest of the Bulls/Heat game & maybe flip through the channels. Nite people - and make good choices!

OK - settling into bed now. I know, I'm pathetic, what can I say? Thanks for reading people. And make good choices!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Day 526.

Another miserable day, and the weather is not supposed to clear up til the the end of the week. Apparently, the worst is yet to come - later tonight we're supposed to get torrential downpours, thunder & lightning here on Long Island. Awesome.

We'll see though. Sometimes the forecast is just completely wrong, so you never know. The commute tomorrow should be interesting.

Anywho, onto other stuff. I had a great workout today. I'm keeping with the theme of doing Firm workouts I haven't done in forever. So after 21 minutes on the inclined treadmill, I did Total Sculpt Plus Abs with Jen Carman. This is heavy duty sculpting workout that uses the Fanny Lifter & the sculpting stick. I tried to use heavy weights as much as possible to up the calorie burn. In the end, I wound up burning 685 calories. Take a look!
On a different note, I recently lost 2 blog followers. Bummer. I wonder what I said to piss people off to the point where they didn't want to read my blog anymore. Shrug. Well, there's nothing I can do about it. I can't take it personally. Stuff happens sometimes.

All in all, I had a good day. I stayed within my points, I got in all of my requirements, and I tracked everything in my journal. Can't complain about that.

Wrapping this one up now. Thanks for reading. And make good choices!

Monday, May 16, 2011

Day 525 - Monday, Monday.

It is supposed to rain here in NY all week long. Until Saturday, that is, when it's supposed to clear up. It's cooler here now too, which is a total bummer.

Because of the crummy weather, I soooo did not want to work out. At all. What else is new? Does anyone else ever feel that way, or is it just me?

I procrastinated until I couldn't any longer. I knew that if I didn't get a workout in, I'd feel like such a loser. So I did 26 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Body Sculpt Blaster with Nancy Tucker. I've been pulling Firm DVDs that I haven't done in a while to shake things up a little. I burned 662 calories. See?
That is real sweat people. I was soaked in it!

Good day today, so I can't complain. I got in all of my requirements, tracked everything in my journal, and I stayed within my points.

I have to finish this now because I'm off to watch the New Jersey Housewives. I'm not proud of that, believe me. It's one of the few things I look forward. They are such trash, aren't they? Money doesn't mean a thing if you act like a trash. And they thought Danielle was bad - please. Teresa is just as bad, I don't care what anyone says.

Ok, wrapping up now. Make good choices people!

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Day 524 - Taking care of Sonia.

OMG. I am exhausted. Taking care of a 2 year old is hard work.

Parents, when you have kids, you don't eat, you don't sleep, and if you're lucky, you might get in a shower. How am I doing so far, parents? Am I pretty much on the money?

I took her to the children's museum on Long Island. There were lots of things to do there. She played, she ran around, and she had fun. She's warmed up to me a lot, and she was so sweet!

It took forever for me to get her down for a nap, but she finally fell asleep, thank God!

It was so much fun having her here, I need to spend more time with her. She is so freaking cute I could just eat her right up!

I didn't have time to eat really, and right now, I'm more tired than I am hungry.

So I have to wrap this one up now, before I pass out. Nite people! Good choices!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Days 522 & 523.

Happy Saturday people! Sorry for not posting yesterday. I didn't work out, and I didn't really have a lot to say. So I figure I will try to make it up to you guys by posting photos. Photos of my favorite furry little guys. First up is Luke.
Luke is my baby. He is spoiled rotten. And apparently, he's afraid of the camera because his ears are back. My little guy.
His littermate Lika (pronounced Like-a). They are 7 years old. They are so adorable, aren't they? They're both very attached to my mother. When I move out, they're staying here.

WI was today, and I'm down 1.6 lbs. I'm at 207.4. Downward slowly but surely.

I worked out after I got back from WI. I started with 20 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Total Body Toner with Allie del Rio. This is my least favorite of Allie's workouts. She's too annoying in this one. "These are toughies." And she's my favorite Firm lead, but she's just too cheesy & perky in this one for my taste. But I did burn 527 calories, so I guess it all worked out in the end.
Pretty good day, I have no complaints. I tracked everything in my journal, and I got in all of my requirements.

The zit is getting smaller. It doesn't hurt anymore if I happen to touch it, and the swelling is all gone. A few more days, and hopefully it will be completely gone.

Tomorrow I have Sonia all day. I have no idea what we'll do, but I guess we'll play some games & color and stuff. It's supposed to rain a little bit tomorrow, but we'll try to get to a park or something for her.

That's all for now. Thanks for reading. And make good choices!

Friday, May 13, 2011

Day 521 - Before the Zit, and After.

Quick update, since you never know when Blogger will decide to just not work again, like yesterday. Anyone else have the shakes because they couldn't post, like me? I'm the first to admit that I am way too addicted to social media. It's my crack, I swear.

After work, I headed to the zit doctor to see if she could take care of my zit problem. Here's a pic of me in the car before I headed into the office.
See that sucker up close? She told me I also had a whitehead that she would open since I was there.

And after.

You guys are all up in my skin right now. =)

I look a little swollen, but it's better now. It hurt when she opened them up, and then injected them with medicine. That part was not that much fun at all. I told her I was in a wedding a week from Saturday, and that normally, I wouldn't care, but this was a special occasion.

She gave me scripts for anti-inflammatories and steriods, to reduce my breakouts from now until then. She also said that warm water were good for closing up my pores.

No workout today, since I get real off kilter with the slightest change of my routine. I was supposed to work out today, but I got back later than I expected because of this doctor's appointment, and then I just didn't feel it at all.

No worries though. I was on track with my eating, I stayed within my points, and I tracked everything in my journal. Got in all of my requirements too.

That's all for now. Will update again later. Thanks for reading. And make good choices.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Day 520.

I called the dermatologist today and made the appointment for tomorrow after work. If I touch the zit, it hurts, which tells me that there's a lot of bad stuff in it. I know it's bad to touch it, so I do stay away from it. I can't wait to get rid of this stupid thing already.

I think that this week I'm going to concentrate on doing more sculpting oriented DVDs. That's not to say I won't be doing any cardio at all - I ALWAYS do cardio, because I know it's important. As is sculpting.

I started with 20 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I pulled out a Firm DVD that I hadn't done in a very long time - Super Body Sculpt with Stephanie Corley. It's split into 2 different sections - upper body & then lower body. The lower body segment was tough. She likes those leg presses on the Fanny Lifter a lot. I thought my thighs would just crumble at some point, but they didn't. I burned 503 calories. See?
That is real sweat on my face and pouring down my chest people. Can you see the redness of the zit? Ugh. I'm totally taking before & after pics tomorrow, btw.

Good day today. I got in all of my requirements, stayed within my points, and tracked everything in my journal.

Wrapping this one up now. Thanks for reading peeps. And make good choices, k? =)

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Day 519.

I have a huge zit developing under my left eye. 11 days before the wedding. I can't believe it - this really sucks. You'll be able to see it in the photo below. So I've made the executive decision to go to the dermatologist to see if he can pump it full of medicine to make it go away. It's not a big deal - I've had an acne problem my whole life, it seems. And I've had acne surgery before, where they actually pop the zit with a needle so that it doesn't scar, and then inject anti-acne medication in it. Yeah, it's not real pleasant, but it does work. And then hopefully it will go away soon. I think I'll make the appointment for Thursday. Hopefully, they'll be able to accommodate me.

I decided to do a hardcore workout today. I started with 20 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Tough Tape with Tracie Long. I forgot how much she liked to do the leg press in this one! It was tough. I burned 614 calories. I was pouring sweat like a mofo. Wanna see?
You can kinda sort see the zit I'm talking about on the right side, which is my left side, under the eye. It's all red & swollen, it's gross, and it sucks the big one. Hopefully, the dermatologist will be able to zap it. I'm not taking any chances right now. My mother asked me if I had bumped into something, and I said no, it's a fucking pimple. Which is just what I need in my life right now. And yes, I realize it could be a lot worse.

Good day today. It's so important to string those good days together, isn't it. Good days lead to even more good days.

I got in all of my requirements, tracked everything in my journal, and stayed within my points. So I really can't complain, disgusting pimple aside. =)

Wrapping up now. Thanks for reading. Make good choices peeps!

Monday, May 9, 2011

Day 518.


I got nothing really to say today. Shocking, I know.

I decided to go tanning a few times before the wedding. I feel like I look a little pasty. But I'm not going to go crazy orange or anything. I only bought 6 sessions, and I may not even use all of them. I know tanning is bad for you, so I'll never do this again.

I decided to take a rest day today. I've worked out 5 days in a row, and it was time for a rest day.

I had a good day though. I got in all of my requirements, I tracked everything, and I stayed within my points.

Wrapping this one up now. I really got nothing, sorry. Make good choices people!

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Day 517 - Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Mother's Day Mom! Taken today. We went up to my brother's today in Westchester. My mother's name is Lucrecia, but everyone just calls her Mom. She's the mother in Big Fat Greek Wedding, I swear.

Mom: You hungry?

Person in my house: No, I'm good, I just ate, thanks.
Mom: Ok, I fix you something. :)
That's my brother, Sonia's Dad. The pointy ears are supposed to be Sammy, little Yorkie, but I took these on my Blackberry, so he got cropped out. Sorry, little guy. Everyone says my brother is the spitting image of my Mom, and I look more like my Dad. What do you guys think?

Oh, and if you leave me any comments about how you think my brother's hot, I will sic the wrath of Mordor on you. And if you don't know what Mordor is, shame on you. =)
How can so much little girl cuteness exist in one photo? Me & Sonia. She was a little distracted because she was trying to watch a Clifford the Big Red Dog video in their car. Everyone I know swears she could be my baby - that she looks exactly like me. I think she looks like my brother. I think she's definitely got our nose, though. Thoughts?

It was a long day. We went up in the morning, and didn't get back til 4. When I got home, I sooooo did not want to work out. Familiar story. But I knew that if I didn't, then I would just feel like a loser. I knew that I wanted to do a short workout, so I started with 20 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did 20 minutes of heavy upper body sculpting. I burned 444 calories. Wanna see?
It was a good day today. I got in all of my requirements, tracked everything, and stayed within my points. Loved hanging out with Sonia!

Gonna wrap this one up now. Game of Thrones is starting soon, and Sean Bean is my new obsession now. He is so freaking hot, I don't care how much older than me he is! He is hot, isn't he Kenlie? lol.

Happy Mother's Day to all you moms out there. I don't know how you guys do it, but you're the best. Jack, you better have made this a great day for Anita. Just saying. :)

Thanks for reading. And make good choices!

Saturday, May 7, 2011

Day 516.

I couldn't get out of bed this morning. I actually slept in til about 8:30. Which might as well be noon, since I never sleep late. I missed my WW meeting, but I went to WI anyway. I'm at 209 on the dot. The same damn 10 lbs. that I lose & gain & lose all over again. It's fine - I'm feeling more focused these days.

I got in a super hardcore workout today. I started with 20 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did Jillian Michaels' No More Trouble Zones. I hadn't done that DVD in forever, and I felt like doing it. I'm glad I did, although she does like her planks in this one, doesn't she? I couldn't do that segment, so I did a lot of shuffles and jumping rope in place. I burned 734 calories. Take a look!
I ran a whole bunch of errands today after my workout. I went to CVS to pick up a prescription, then to Home Depot to get a really big bag of Miracle Gro Potting Mix, then finally to Trader Joe's to pick up some last minute grocery store stuff. Then I rushed home to watch the Kentucky Derby. Congrats, Animal Kingdom! Whoever bet on you made gold today. Too bad I'm not a betting kind of girl. That, and I know nothing about horse racing.

Tomorrow we're going to my brother's house for Mother's Day. I can't wait to see Sonia! lol.

Good day today. I got in all of my requirements, tracked everything in my journal, and stayed within my points.

Wrapping this one up now. Thanks for reading, peeps. And make good choices!

Friday, May 6, 2011

Day 515.

I started the day with a raging headache. Actually, the headache started last night, behind my left eye. But then it kinda went away, and I went to bed.

Then this morning, I got to work, and it started up again. No worries, that's why they invented Extra Strength Tylenol. :) Headache went away shortly thereafter. Tonight, just to be safe, I'm taking a Tylenol PM.

I got in an awesome workout today. I started with 20 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Maximum Cardio with Carissa Foster. I burned 682 calories. Take a gander at what I looked like afterwards.
I was pouring sweat, but it felt great. So no complaints here. :)

It was a good day. I was focused, I remained on program, and I stayed within my points. I got in all of my requirements and tracked everything in my journal.

Wrapping this one up now. Thanks for reading, people. And make good choices!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Day 514.

I want to talk about something that I didn't mention yesterday. It was my final fitting before the wedding, and Wendy's as well. So I was tying the skirt up to make the bustles (which is what I'll be doing on her wedding day, along with the other bridesmaids), and she said something like,

"Don't worry. When it's your day, I'll be doing this for you!"

And I guess I said something like, "Uh, that's not gonna happen, so I don't think you'll have to worry about that ever."

Wendy: "But why not? Don't you want to get married? Why don't you sign up for Eharmony or something?"

Me: "I'm really not interested in doing that. If I meet someone, great, but I'm not looking for it to happen anytime soon. And I'm ok with it not happening." (Apparently, she's not.)

Wendy: "But what's the worst that could happen if you sign up? Maybe you'll make a new friend or something."

And then she gave me a look that said, Poor Kelly.

Yup. The pity look. Poor Kelly because she doesn't have a boyfriend. Whatever.

See, she's all happy lovey dovey right now because she's getting married. I get it. If it were me, I'd probably want my friends to be all happy in love too. Her heart is in the right place, her intentions are genuine, and I understand that. But right now? Eh. I'm not knocking love or getting married - I'm all for it. I'm not opposed to dating sites at all. It's just NOT happening for me right now. And I guess I just don't feel like doing anything about it. I'm ok with it. In fact, I'm kinda expecting it not to ever happen. If it does happen, great. If it doesn't happen, great.

Maybe I would like to have a baby someday, but in this day & age, you don't necessarily need to have a guy in your life to do that. Whatever, there are somethings I can't control. This is one of them. I can't control if no one is interested in me right now. It's not like I can snap my fingers and make it happen. That's not how it works. I can control how I take care of myself, and how I carry myself.

Like how I talk about myself. Floriana made a good point yesterday. I shouldn't look so negatively at myself, and I shouldn't make negative comments about myself. Easier said than done, Floriana. I know you're right, believe me. It's not healthy, it's not right, and if I can say negative things about myself, it only gives license for other people to do the same. NO, it is NOT ok. It is NEVER ok.

I think that as I lose more weight, I'll reach a point where hopefully, the negative self talk won't be an issue anymore. Fingers crossed.

I had a really great workout today. As usual, I was dragging my ass about it. But I hopped on the inclined treadmill for almost an hour. I wasn't intending on that, since I really thought that I would just warm up on the treadmill then do a Firm DVD like I always do. But it's good to switch it up every once in a while. I burned 637 calories. Wanna see?
Anywho, it was a good day, overall. I stayed within my points, tracked everything in my journal, and I got in all of my requirements.

Those of you who are single, do you ever get the "talk" that I got from your involved friends? How do you take it? Let me know!

Wrapping this one up now. Thanks for reading. And make good choices people!

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Day 513 - Final Fitting.

So this is me today, in the dress, in the fitting room. Don't even ask me how I think I look here. I'll be burning that dress the second the wedding is over. I hate how I look in pictures. I look horrible.

Anyway. I got back to working out today. It felt good, I have to admit. I didn't take a picture, and I should've, but I forgot. Plus I was running late for my fitting. I did 13 minutes on the inclined treadmill, then I did The Firm Power Sculpt workout with Allie del Rio. I burned 322 calories, and like I said, I felt good.

Much better day today. I thought I was showing too much cleavage in my dress, but Wendy thought it was fine. In fact she said, too bad you're not flaunting! lol. She's funny. But she did say if I felt too uncomfortable, I could always wear a nice brooch or pin. I definitely don't want the girls to take on a mind of their own, know what I mean?

I was on point today, it felt great. I stayed within my points, wrote everything in my journal, and got in all of my requirements.

I'm going to wrap this one up now. Thanks for reading. Make good choices!

Day 512.

Hi, Just have time for a quick post. I'll post again later today, I promise. I've been majorly lacking in the work out department, and I can feel it.

I'm feeling sluggish, not as peppy, not as energetic. I have to change that pronto. NOW.

TOM is here, so I am very interested in all things chocolate at the moment. Not good, I know, and this where the mental aspect of weight loss MUST set in.

My final fitting appointment is later, and I'm meeting Wendy there. I will be rocking my Spanx, and I'll see if I can post a pic of what it looks like. Hope the lumps & bumps are smoothed out with the Spanx.

More later. Good choices peeps!

Monday, May 2, 2011

Day 511.

You guys - I couldn't make up this wedding drama crap if I tried. For real. I'm going to talk about something that I haven't mentioned or gone into a lot of detail yet.

Saturday night after the bachelorette party, Wendy called me crying, in a drunken stupor. This was the conversation where she told me she wanted to fire her bridesmaid that was complaining about everything, and replace her with the cunt. She was very emotional that night, obviously she was not completely sober. She was soo thankful & grateful to me for organizing her party, and for making it happen. She thanked me for dealing with the drama, and I appreciated all that. I said, it was my pleasure doing something special for you. No worries.

And then she started to get serious, and the crying stopped. She said she & her fiance had been talking, and he told her that she had to drop her as a bridesmaid asap. That if it had been him, he would've done it a long time ago. There are less than 3 weeks to go. And that's where the idea of asking this bitch to be a replacement came about.

So last night she left the c*nt a voicemail, and they talked today about it.

Luckily, she said she couldn't do it because it was too last minute and there wasn't enough time to do everything. Phew! I can't tell you the enormous sense of relief that just washed over me. I'd rather deal with the devil I know. And the devil I know is not as obnoxious or loud as this other chick. It's just that she's thoughtless & completely oblivious.

When I heard that the c*nt had said no, I actually stood up from my desk at work and said loudly, YES! I'm not kidding. I actually felt like dancing, and I tweeted about it and everything. Phew, I am so fucking relieved.

Ok, that was pretty much my day in a nutshell. The drama surrounding this wedding is far more interesting than my own life, apparently.

And in the middle of all this - the White House announced that bin Laden was terminated. Good. I hope that son of a bitch is in a very special place in hell tonight and for all eternity. I'm a NYer, people, so I feel this a lot. My brother was in the city that day, and he saw the first plane hit the Twin Towers. By some miracle, he managed to get the last train out of the city to Westchester. I'm so grateful he's ok, and I feel an immense sadness for all those who were lost on that awful day. That will stay with me forever.

Ok, enough. Wrapping this one up now. Thanks for reading. And make good choices.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Days 508-510.

Yesterday was Wendy's bachelorette party, and it was great. I got home kinda late from the wine tour, and I just didn't feel like posting about it. One of her friends really pissed me off with her rudeness & over all cuntiness (yeah, I took it there), and I was ready to kill her. But she's Wendy's friend, so that didn't happen. She was rude, obnoxious & fucking loud, and I got the sense that she looks down on everyone who is not her. She was even rude to Wendy, but Wendy was like, "Well, that's just the way she is. I'm just used to it, I guess."

Yeah, ok.

The bridesmaid that didn't come didn't even bother to text my friend or anything. Not even a "hope you have a great time!" sort of thing. Oh, and the deal that she found - the tour we booked because she found it - tried to fucking rip us off. Yeah, we don't like this girl. In fact, last night, my friend called me and told me she is considering dropping her as a bridesmaid altogether & replacing her with the bitch I met yesterday. If that happens, we will battle, I can tell you that right now. In fact, I was thinking that if she does decide to do this last minute switcheroo, I think I may tell her that I can't be her MOH because I don't want to be anywhere near this cunt. Yes, I took it there again.

So, that's the fucking drama I've had to deal with. I can't wait for this fucking wedding to be over & done with already. And then I think I'll take a break from my friend. I am so sick of this crap.

If & when I ever get married, I'm fucking eloping. I may have some kind of a reception with more people, but that's up in the air.

Those of you who are married & had big ceremonies, did you have to cut certain people out of your lives because of how they acted in regards to your wedding and the planning that went with it?