At least, that is what I am telling myself today.
Today, just for today, I am going to make an effort to get rid of this no-good feeling. No me gusta, and it does me absolutely no good at all.
So today, I'm changing that. Tomorrow is another story.
Yesterday, I just felt lonely. And I once again felt so frustrated about my loose skin on my midsection and thighs. Apparently, this is an ongoing feeling that I manage to shut out most days.
It's kinda strange - and just a bit freaky - how those damn funks can hit you out of the blue. I'm not really sure why I felt like wallowing yesterday, I just know that I did. And I need to cut it out. Because compared to a lot of other people, I've got it pretty good. I do know that its ok to feel what I feel, but at some point, I need to get over it. Or do something about it.
So someone please remind me of that the next time I start down this wallowing path. It's so unattractive. And so not worth it.
This is one of the many reasons why I love Bikram. It really helps me to clear my mind and focus on myself for 90 minutes. The sweat helps too, and I do love that. Does it help that sexy instructor was leading the 8PM session tonight? You bet!
It also helped that I dumped a huge Hefty trash bag full of fat clothes today. Right before I got to Bikram. Yup, that helped a WHOLE lot! I mean, why was I holding on to them for? In case, on the off chance, I gain the weight back? Well, the whole point of losing weight is that you try your damndest to be diligent and NOT gain it back. Right? So to the Goodwill bin they went and there they are as we speak. Take that, fat clothes!
And I also decided to wear the booty shorts tonight. I don't wear them often, but dammit, my legs ARE looking better, no matter what my thunder thighs say! Thunder thighs be damned! LOL.
It felt so good to sweat like that. Man, I love Bikram, I really do. It has changed my life, I can't even properly put it into words.
Solid, on plan day. Tracked everything, got in the requirements, and stayed within my points.
Off to blog stalk & do the commenting thing. Then bed.
Good choices!
Way to have a good day!! Get those nasty thoughts of your head - you're so beautiful and your body is changing for the better every day! Glad you rocked the booty shorts. x
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Miz.
I remember reading that you've lost the bulk of your weight in about a year, right? Well... there is hope. Your skin probably will never be 'normal' but according to a friend of mine and several other blogs and medical sites I've found, your skin WILL get better. Especially if you are good about hydrating (drinking lots of water), exfoliating, and using a good moisturizer (something with coconut oil or lots of vitamin E). It may never go away, but apparently it takes your body a while to adjust to weight loss and for your skin to start pulling in. Even a friend of mine who had gastric said that even though she lost the bulk of her weight the first year she thought that for sure she would need surgery all over her body. But as this year has worn on, she said that many parts of her body have pulled in and look so much better! You could be the same! So, don't give up. I don't know if you have taken any pics (full body) in your underwear or anything, but if you have, it would be good to continue that and watch for progress over the months. :) I think if you give it some more time, you may be surprised at what your body can do!
ReplyDeleteI agree with that as well. Someone I know had gastric bypass, she is our age and weighed about 400 pounds. She lost all the weight, but skin was very saggy. That was two years ago, but now her skin looks WAY better on its own. She didn't have to have surgery for it, it just kinda went back into place.
DeleteKeep fighting the good fight, there will always be demons in your head, keep fighting them off, look at your progress, all the weight you have lost and realize just how awesome you are. Positive thoughts lead to positive actions.
ReplyDeleteI know if felt so good to donate those clothes and say goodbye to the past. You are an amazing woman and you have done so much!
ReplyDeleteBAM take that fat clothes!!!!!! Glad you are feeling better :)
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