Something really aggravated me on Facebook this morning. I won't go into too much detail, suffice to say that what some people consider gorgeous and sexy does not agree with me. Whatever, to each his own. Everyone's entitled to their own opinion and beliefs.
Enter Twitter. I released some of my aggravation on there today, which may or may not have been a good idea. If I sounded mean or judgemental, I apologize. That certainly was NOT my intention, since I whole heartedly believe that mean people suck.
Anywho, let me summarize by saying that one of my followers tweeted this to me, which totally was the sweetest thing and made me tear up a little:
"You're somebody's dream girl, you just haven't met him yet."
How sweet, right? Only, my question is: Wouldn't I have met him by this point in my life?
No, seriously. It hasn't happened yet, and I'm really not expecting it to. I've waited my whole life to be someone's goddess, and time is just flying by. So because it hasn't happened yet, then it's just not going to. And by the way, I am MORE than fine with it not happening. It doesn't happen for everyone. That's life. It happens.
So please, no reassuring comments that he's out there, ok? If it happens, great. If it doesn't, great. I'm pretty awesome - with or without a guy. And I certainly don't need one to feel complete.
I will say just one more thing though. I've made a major decision.
If, by the time I'm 35, my situation has not changed, then I'm going to get artificially inseminated. I really want a baby, and the time is just flying by. I don't have forever, so I have decided to take the initiative. I've learned the hard way that I can NEVER just rely on things MAYBE happening - if I want something done, I have to go out there and do it my damn self. I will not rely or make my life dependent on finding someone, since it may not happen. I will have and get the life that I want - even if it means going against convention to get it.
I am way stronger than this. I am way better than this. And I am way ABOVE this. (I've always admitted to being an elitist snob. hehe)
I am a complete person the way I am right now. There is NOTHING wrong with me because I don't have a husband. There is NOTHING lacking in my life because I am not married.
This is why I think people suck sometimes. I made the mistake of posting what one of my Twitter followers tweeted me on Facebook, and I really wish I had NEVER said anything. I'm still not over my BFF giving me that pity look last year at our final fitting for her wedding. And that's exactly what those reassuring comments on Facebook were to me today - pity comments. And yes - she commented on my status today, which was nice, but it just felt like another pity comment. Ugh.
I mean, really? It's the 21st century, and people are still looking at other people like there's something wrong with them because they are single? Seriously? Wow, judgmental much? I hope you understand a little better now when I state emphatically that people suck.
Ok, I'm done talking about this. I was sooo aggravated today, so it was a good thing that I went to Bikram. Towards the end of the session, I was starting to feel nauseous. The final backbend really made me feel sick. That's been happening ever since I've been taking Bikram. Joe came over to me and asked how I was doing. I really hate that. I mumbled, "Fine." And then I closed my eyes as I was in savasana.
But I still sweated like a mofo. Not much of a smile today, I just wasn't feeling it.
I couldn't wait to just get home and shower. Joe insists on saying good night. I really wish he would stop doing that already. I was walking out with the quickness again, eyes on the floor, keys in hand. And he still said good night. I barely turned my head and mumbled good night. I'm not really sure why I don't like him. And I'm really not sure why he insists on saying good night when my body language clearly says I'm not in the mood to talk at all. I sound like such a b*tch, don't I? Sigh.
Good eating day, in spite of the aggravation. Tracked everything, got in all of my requirements, and stayed within my points.
Need to wrap this one up now. Sorry if this was a slightly angry post, guys. I just really needed to release this aggravation some way, and blogging is my outlet. I'll be better tomorrow. I'm already feeling better. :-)
Make good choices!