Or, at least, I am trying to think a little more clearly than yesterday.
I know this calls for something drastic.
I have to do something. This calls for some kind of drastic change.
Tara took the time today to talk to me via Skype about it, which I really appreciated. She thinks I need to stop concentrating on the number and focus more on how I feel in this new body.
I can appreciate what she's saying. Yes, I'm smaller than I have been in a while, I'm getting stronger lifting heavy, my clothes feel a little loose, but I'm still 20ish pounds overweight.
I need to evaluate some things. Tara thinks I may not be eating enough, and she suggested upping my calories. Like astronomically. Which scares the shit out of me. She believes what may be happening is that I'm not eating enough of the right things, and so my body is holding on to what it shouldn't be.
There's a bootcamp place by my house that offers morning classes (like, crazy early, before work kinda early) 3 days a week. I'm thinking of doing it for 3 weeks to shock my body. If I like it, I'll continue it and just cut down on my at home workouts, to like once a week.
We'll see. Right now, it's still something I'm thinking about.
Got on the treadmill for an hour this morning to release some of the negative BS I was still carrying around with my from yesterday. 539 calories burned.