I've been complaining & whining ad nauseum about stupid crap in my life lately, and I've spent way too much time feeling and being angry.
That's not a way to live. When you're like that, you're not living. You're existing.
You're wasting your life.
And for what? What's the point of that?
I don't have a legit reason to be angry. Holly did, and she choose to fight for and find her happiness instead. Read up on her story and you'll understand what I mean when I say that.
Just keep chipping away. Decluttering. Anyone that has a significant amount of weight to lose, you know where I'm coming from with that.
Sometimes, that's all we can do. Just keep chipping away at the extra weight. Declutter the negativity that we feel about ourselves that we then project onto other people.
Like the damn walls
I'm going to keep chipping away. Decluttering. Working hard and chipping away at all the barriers and finding whatever it is that I need to find.
I also need to chip away at my own bullshit meter. For real. Keeping the BS around ain't helping me, nor is it doing me any favors. It is hindering my progress. Hence the reason why I've been stuck for several months now. I've actually been believing my own BS. Shudder.
Like when I say - and have said - that my body seems to like these last 10 pounds I lose & regain - BS!!! Oh my Lord, I can't believe I actually allowed myself to believe that nonsense. My happy weight is not 150-160.
My happy weight is my goal weight, which right now is set at 142. A 2 or 3 pound flucuation below or above that is ok with me. For now. I'd be at a healthy weight and have a normal BMI for my height at 142 pounds.
Full disclosure: I read on another blog about "goal weights" and how the blogger thinks it's impossible that they will ever reach their particular goal weight. I suffered from that disbelief myself. For a very long time.
Which is exactly why I've been stuck. Other than believing my own nonsense, of course.
Why set yourself up for immediate "failure" by choosing not to believe in yourself?
Why was I so afraid of success? Of successful weight loss? I should be embracing it! Not believing it's impossible. That's just silly otherwise, because then why am I trying to lose weight if I think I'll never get there?
It is NOT impossible. Of course it is not.
So chipping away at the scale, one single pound at a time.
Living and practicing healthy habits. Going back to what works.
Like sweaty pics!
Bikram tonight, and it felt a little easier than yesterday.
Tracking my food intake, eating well, and reaching out to the people that I care about.
All things I have done today.
And I am feeling lighter already. :-)