I've been thinking about my last few WIs. The last few weeks, I've felt like a total failure. And I've said some really awful things to myself.
Things I'd NEVER say to anyone else with WIs that resemble mine.
Things that would NEVER cross my mind with another person in my WL situation.
I would tell them what all of you have told me.
Any loss is great. And it's still a step in the right direction.
So why am I so quick to label it as failure?
I done seen this on the Book of Face today.
How apropos, right?
One thing I'm not is a quitter.
Nor a liar.
What I am is smart enough to realize that every day, I choose to recommit to a healthy life.
So. I am choosing fitness and health every single day. It's something that Carla posted on a vlog a while back. Every day, she chooses fitness.
Every day, there are choices to be made. Every day, I can either choose fitness and health or not.
Every day, I can choose that I am worth the effort, or not.
Today was a rest day, but I made an extra conscious effort to move more around the office. More going up and down the stairs. Just more active.
I had a derm appointment after work today, then I had to pay my VS bill, which was due today! I can't believe I waited til the last minute to do that. I'm usually pretty on time with paying my shite, but I guess it will occasionally happen to the best of us. No biggie, done & paid, no late fee on my next bill.
Would you believe I am STILL feeling all those pushups and ab exercises from two days ago? Sore as hell, I'm not kidding. That's just crazy, yo.
TMI alert. Know how I have a history of bad acne? I've got cystic acne scarring all over my face. The last 2 weeks I've gotten 2 growths that I thought were pimples on my right side, my right oblique. Today, I went to the dermatologist to get them looked at.
She told me they were cysts, not pimples. They might just be hair follicles that got aggravated from my sweaty ass workouts. They might be a result from the excess sweat from Bikram or Bootcamp. Oh, and that they could be community-acquired-bacterial-something something. So she drained them both, which hurt like a bitch, took a sample, and injected them with anti-inflammatories to make them shrink and go away. She put band-aids on them because they were bleeding.
Yes, it's gross. Which is why there won't be pics of said drained cysts. It's on the side of my stomachs with my stretch marks on display, so nein.
So I go back in 2 weeks when the results come back and so she can check the area. I'm not worried about it. I have topical things to put on them to treat them.
Anywho, that's all I got.
Commit everyday to health and fitness.
Remember you're worth so much more than any binge, any fake ass trigger food, and move a bit more than you normally do.