Thursday, November 28, 2013


I like to start this holiday with a good sweat.  In previous years, I've done a local Turkey Trot 5K.  It's finally dawned on me that I am not a runner.  Nor do I like running outside in the freezing cold. (Yes, I know I've lived in the Northeast my whole life.  Hence the reason I'm miserable for 7 months out of the year.)

Today tho, my Bootcamp was open briefly in the morning.  So I opted for that instead.  Less intense than what my trainer calls "Saturday Sweat" but darn close.  It was leg day, so he put us through a lot of plyo lunges, jump squats, speed rope intervals & sprints!  Good Lord, it was tough.  And the class was packed!  He had to pull the stations he had set up because there were just too many people.  Great way to start the day.

Walking home, I thought about what I'm thankful and grateful for.  I'm thankful for my family, because they shaped me into the person I am today.

I'm thankful for my close circle of friends.  People who get me, and just roll with it.

I'm thankful for the people I've met because of social media, my blog, and Weight Watchers.  Honestly, I couldn't imagine my life now without them.

I'm thankful for the Redneck, who for some crazy, ungodly reason puts up with me & my very unique and special kind of lunacy.  Seriously.  I think he's got the patience of a saint.

I'm thankful for Weight Watchers, which has allowed me to get my life back. It's taught me so much about food and portion size and health.  It's taught me that this is the way I'll be eating for life.

I'm thankful for my life, and for all the great things that are happening right now.  It's not always rainbows and sunshine (I'll never ever pretend that my life is perfect or that I am perfect because no one's life is perfect and no one is perfect), but I'm in a much better place now.  I still struggle, I still have bad days like anyone else, but they are few & far between now.  It's gotten much better.  I've gotten much better.

I'm thankful for this body, I truly am.  I piss & moan about the small amount of loose skin I have, but honestly - I'll take a bit of loose skin over an extra 100+ pounds of FAT any day of the week.  I am strong, and my body is strong, too. I love my arms and I love the fact that it took hard work to get them like that.

And I'm thankful for my blog readers, truly I am.  Thank you everyone who reads here and leaves comments here.  I appreciate you all!

Finally, how did we all do today, foodwise?  Are we pleasantly full or uncomfortably stuffed?  Did we remember to wear tight, fitted clothes to dinner so we wouldn't overdo it?

Did you remember to tell yourselves it's just ONE meal, not even an entire day??  I hope so.  As for me, I wore my brand new jeggings (yes, I said jeggings.  Don't judge, we all gotta do what we all gotta do.  And my ass looked popping in them!)  My plate consisted of mashed sweet potatoes, zucchini casserole, turkey white meat, and a spoonful of gravy.  I made the stuffing from scratch and had about 3 forkfuls.   We didn't have a traditional dessert this year since I made the sweet potatoes with brown sugar & cinnamon.  After I finished my plate, I sat back and stopped.

No second helpings.

No overdoing it.

No unpleasant, gross feeling afterwards.

No food coma.

And that was something else I was extra thankful for.  :-)

Hope you all had a great holiday!

Sunday, November 24, 2013

Party Outfit & Monthly WI Results.

Weightwise, I fluctuated a bit this past month.  For a whopping total of .2.

I can deal with that.

I'd love to get down a bit more, but it's as if my body is trying to tell me something.  It's fighting physically with what I'd like it to do mentally.  Sigh.

But it's not so bad.  Because this is what maintaining looks like.  For me, anyway.

Gap skinny jeans, sleeveless top & necklace from NY & Co., and black knee high boots.  Not bad, right?  I clean up pretty well.

P.S.  Ileana - you can't tell from this pic, but I totally accessorized.  Rings, bracelet, earrings.  You would've been proud.  :-)

I went to a party tonight.   I was invited by my Bootcamp BFF, Rachel.   It was at her twin sister's house, who also goes to Bootcamp.  Did I ever tell you about her? Rachel started in September and on her first day she followed me around the stations when we had to buddy up.  We started talking and we became fast friends.  She & I are the same age, and it turns out we have a bit in common.

Us last night.

There were a whole bunch of people at the party, high school & college friends of her sister & her sister's husband.  I think I met about 50 people last night, (good thing her sister and her brother-in-law have a beautiful, sprawling house) and I may remember about 5 names.  Everyone was great tho, and a few people said they'd heard a lot about me from Rachel.  That was sweet.  :-)

At some point, Rachel told the people we had been chatting with about the magazine spread and that I had lost over 100 pounds - completely out of no where!!  I was a little embarrassed, since she announced it literally out of thin air.  I don't make it a secret, but I don't broadcast my weight loss either.  Not to people I've met for 10 minutes.  Given how random it was, her friends were super cool about it.  After congratulating me, they were like, "Don't be embarrassed, Kel - Rachel's proud of you!  And you should be proud of yourself, too!"

They asked to see the spread & I pulled it up on my phone.  It was nice, just hanging out and meeting all kinds of different people.  And you know, they didn't treat me any differently from before they knew about the weight loss and the magazine.

A lady at my Weight Watcher's meeting asked me for some tips for Thanksgiving, which happened to be the topic.  I'll go more into detail on Weds., but it's really just some common sense.

Enjoy the rest of your (freezing cold) Sunday!

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

A Book Post.

So I've finished reading The Perks of Being a Wallflower and absolutely loved it.  Then I tackled The Kite Runner.

Oh my.  Someone should've warned me just how sad this novel was!  I went into it not knowing a single thing about it, which I prefer doing when it comes to reading a new book.

So I loved it and hated it all at the same time.  I loved the writing, loved the story, but hated just how depressing it was.  Even at the end, when there was an attempt at the main character's redemption.

All in all, I did like it.

Right now, I'm reading The Virgin's Lover by Philippa Gregory.  I've read a lot of her stuff before, so her writing is nothing new to me.  I like historical fiction because I was a history major in college, and I am a total history nerd/geek.  (There's not much I don't know about WWII.  Not so much the battles, but the politics mostly.)

This weekend, I'll be heading to the library to check out Wifey by Judy Blume.  When I was a kid, I read all of her children's novels and I loved her!  I'm not sure what Wifey is about, but I hope I like it.

The get together with Wendy (my BFF) didn't happen this weekend.  She is going through the renovation from hell right now.  Basically, everything that can go wrong when you're trying to renovate the house you just bought, is going wrong.  Home karma does not like her right now.  She woke up Saturday morning to a burst pipe in her basement and a gas leak.  I'm not kidding.  She called her builder guy and managed to get things under control, but she had to bail on us getting together.  Poor thing.  And she really just wants to be done with all this right now.  Who can blame her.

I had my Bootcamp trainer take my measurements last night, and he'll take them again in 4 weeks.  That was more than a bit mortifying, but it's something I should have had him do when I first joined back in February.  I took my own, but I feel that measurements are more accurate when someone else takes them.  He had done a BMI/body fat percentage test back then, but no measurements.  Apparently, I've lost 3% body fat since February.  Not bad.  Let's see if I can lose some more inches.

There are two ladies in my Weight Watchers meeting that read my blog, Wendy (different Wendy) and Leanna.  Since the magazine came out, I've been wondering if anyone else does.

Note to meetings members:  Please excuse the nonsense that dribbles out of my head onto this space.  I don't know what I'm saying half the time.  But if you do read, leave me a comment so I know to look for you on Saturday!

Friday, November 15, 2013

I Suck at Blogging Lately.

I've been a little absent here on the blog - sorry!  Some real life stuff has gotten in the way.

Mom had yet another follow up appointment with the cardiologist this week.  There's been some on-off swelling in her legs which is worrisome, but controllable.  She never used to have that pre-knee replacement, which totally sucks.  I've been thinking lately that the knee surgery was a curse, but it's no good to think that.  Still trying to remain positive about that.  Her levels and numbers improved, but there's still that nagging swelling.

She goes back to the cardiologist next week.  Fingers crossed for that one.

Dani & Tori were in town last week, and it was great to see everyone again.  (Look at me being all social & things!)  I never used to be like that, remember?  Remember when it was just me being super focused on one goal?

How times have changed.  For the better, of course.  :-)

Speaking of social, I mentioned last time how there's one particular lady at my Weight Watchers meetings who really, really wants me to start talking more.  If my leader asks me something, I'll answer, and she has asked me to stand up in front of the group more than once and just talk about my journey, etc.

But I'm just not good at it, I feel.

Besides, pictures are worth 1,000 words.  Right?  So here's this one for ya.

The pic on the left was me in 2008.

Crazy that was ever me, isn't it?

I'm still trying to get the hang of this maintaining mode, so I've been fluctuating and flirting with the same pounds or so above my acceptable weight range.  I'm not 100% ok with it, but I keep hearing it's normal.  I sure hope it is.

And I have to remember that weight loss is NEVER linear.  It's never ever just one single straight line.  It sure as heck has not been that way for me.

So when I'm having those blah days, I need to remember I've come a long way.  And that 3 or  5 pounds is not equivalent to 100+.

No wonder I suck at blogging lately.  I'm all over the place! Hehe.

This weekend, I plan to get a lot of The Kite Runner read, and Wendy is coming over on Sunday.  Someone should've warned me how sad that book was.  I'm only about 100 pages in!  Sigh.  I'll need to read something more uplifting after this one.  I'm thinking The Earth, My Butt and Other Big Round Things might be next on the line up.

What's next on your reading list?

Friday, November 8, 2013

Success Breeds Success?

Yesterday, I played hookey from work.  Dani was coming into town and we made dinner plans in the city.

It was yet another Weight Watchers meet up of epic porportion.  I kid you not.

From left to right:  Melanie, Dani, Kitty, me & Katie.  All Lifetime Weight Watchers members.

Katie on my right is starring in the current Weight Watchers commercial.  Her poster in the centers and in the commercial have her dressed in a black top & a blue skirt.  She's lovely!

We met at a burger joint in the city.  I ordered a bunless burger over a fresh chopped salad.   It was good!  I also partook of some of the sweet potatoe & regular fries and I felt ZERO guilt about it.  I didn't over do it, I just sat back, enjoyed the company of amazing ladies, chit chatted (my how times have changed) and just felt normal.  Fun.  Having fun and BSing with these amazing women as if I had known them forever.

I've come across a saying recently:  Success breeds success.  It goes along the lines of how like attracts like.  A person determined to be successful will surround himself/herself with successful people.

I wonder if that's true.  I suppose there is some truth to it, after all.

Which I think explains why a lady in my Weight Watchers meeting on Saturdays would like for me to participate and talk more.  She's told me flat out that people can learn from my experience.  Shrug.  I've no idea if that is true or not (I'm pretty skeptical in case you couldn't tell.)

What do you think?  Do you think success attracts more success?

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Setting New Fitness (Not Weight Loss) Goals.

This is something I've been thinking about since I hit my goal weight.  What should my next fitness goal be?

Should it be to squat 200+ pounds?  Or run a 25 minute 5K?

Measure at less than 20% body fat?  (Is that even realistic for me, considering all the loose skin I've got?)

Maybe to lean out a little more?

I'm trying to focus primarily on this next phase of my life, since I don't want to always be chasing the proverbial "carrot" of my dream weight.  It's not gonna happen, I feel.  I'd love for it to happen, I really would, but at the end of the day I ask myself this question:

Will it make me deliriously happy?  Is it the end all??  (Ok, 2 questions.)

Bad angle because one's close up and the other is too far away.

The pic on the left is from June.  The one on the right is from last week.

Of course, I do not see a difference, and it is not a fair comparison because of the reason stated above. (too far away, too close.)

K told me he thought my face & legs looked thinner.  And my ankles have "more bone structure" in the pic on the right than the one on the left.  His words, not mine.

FYI - I've maintained the same weight roughly since June, with maybe a 2 or 3 pound difference.  Those blue capris fit me the same. Even the creases around my child-bearing hips are the same.

Oh, and about going back to a more Primal/low carb food plan - I  love me some starchy carbs, but they do not love me back.  Specifically, my face is not a fan.  Neither are my stomachs with the bloaty, heavy feeling they left me with.  My face started breaking out like a teenager all over again.  So, no mas bread things for me.  I tried like the "terca" I am, and it did not work.  Which means that for the zillionth time, I've learned my lesson about that.  All over again.

Low fat dairy doesn't affect me that way.  Strange, right?  I don't get it. I'm still drinking almond milk, and the protein powder I put into my protein smoothie has some dairy/calcium in it.

(Karen, Ileana, when I posted about trying the carb thing again, I imagined you guys shaking your heads at me.  With good reason.  Umm, so there's that.  :-)  )

On another note, I absolutely loved The Perks of Being a Wallflower!  I pretty much devoured that book in about 3 days.  It was so good!

Next up is The Kite Runner.  I've heard great things about that book, so I can't wait to get started on it!

And with that, I probably should get back to work now.  As I think about what my new fitness/life goals ought to be.  :-)

Saturday, November 2, 2013

Weight Loss Forces Your Eyes Open.

Sunday, I hung out with my BFF for the first time in a while.  She and her husband just bought a house, and they are in the middle of an intense remodel/renovation.  So they've been super busy.  Hence the reason we haven't seen each other in a while.

She made me promise not to forget to bring the magazine over to the new house (as if I would forget to bring it!) and we talked and hung out.  It was great catching up.

"You seem so much happier now - and did you notice how much younger you look now?  Your skin is glowing!"

Maybe I do look younger now, maybe I don't.  But talk about an eye opener, right?  Everyone knows that drugs, smoking/alcohol all age you.  All those things make your skin worse, not to mention what they do to the rest of your body.

For me, I've also been extremely aware lately of the way I used to eat.  Dang, it's hard to believe the amount of junk I could pack away when I wanted to.  Ugh.

Speaking of food, a few weeks ago, I thought it would be a fantastic idea to start incorporating grains back into my diet.   Whoa.

Big mistake.  HUGE.

I got hit with all these massive cravings, and my body got all bloated.  Why I thought that would be a great idea, I don't know.  I don't have an allergy to gluten/wheat at all, but they way it leaves me feeling afterward told me I should've continued staying away from it.

So, back to the drawing board for me.  Dairy doesn't leave me feeling that way, so I can tolerate a Fage yogurt once in a while.  Ditto with the half & half in my morning coffee.

Bread, not so much.  No bueno for me.  (Will I ever learn?)

I had to miss my WW meeting & my Bootcamp workout this morning because I had to wait for the maintenance guy.  I've been noticing cave crickets in my place (those things are nasty) so he sprayed some kind of solution and put down glue traps.  Shudder.  Hopefully, that'll be the end of that.

I finished Chronicle of a Death Foretold, so I today I checked out The Kite Runner and The Perks of Being a Wallflower.  I've heard great things about both books, and I can't wait to tackle them.

My new Bootcamp BFF, Rachel, is coming over after boot for dinner one day next week, and on Thursday I get to see Dani!

This is me trying to be more outgoing, more social, trying new things, and more about enjoying this new life.

And who would've thought I'd be stoked to start tackling a new reading project?  :-)