Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Speedbump.

I hit a major speedbump with these stupid, constant snow storms.  As in, crazy weight gain as a result of unwise food choices.

But I'm back on the horse again.

Yup, apparently when I fall, I don't just trip or hobble slightly, I faceplant.

Now, I know not all of that horrid gain is from consuming lard and fat.  I'm retaining water.  I'll be the first to admit that being housebound because of the snow and ordering Chinese takeout was a dumbass move.  No doubt.

I'm not going to even try to justify that because I can't.  How could I? Not with a straight face, not in any kind of way.  It's done, it's over, and the tiny little silver lining I can hold onto is that I'm checking myself.  Right here.

While it's not the end of the world, it's definitely something to take note of and learn from.

No mas.  Ick.

Isn't it something how quickly we can go back to those old, self destructive horrible habits?  Six pounds can become 10, then 20, then 50, then 100+, etc.  And I certainly don't want that.  When I read about bloggers who gain back a significant portion of their weight and how badly they feel about it... I never want to know what that feels like.

Scale is going back down as we speak.  :-)

On Saturday, I drove out to Brooklyn to meet up with some bloggy friends.  Margo was hosting a potluck brunch at her place.  I brought chicken salad and egg salad.



I had so much fun!

Exsoycise, BklynActiveMama, LosingItInTheCity & Queen Bacon.

And now it's back to the regularly scheduled programming.

I promise to never hide when things go way off the beaten path.  I promise to never sugarcoat when I completely derail.  I refuse to hide my flaws.  Why should I?  Things happen, and we move on.

Big announcement in the next week.  So stay tuned.

Stay warm for all you Northeasterners!

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

WI Results & About Change.

On Saturday, at my Weight Watchers meeting, here's how I weighed in.


144.2 lbs.  That is the lowest weight ever of my whole life.

I couldn't believe it.

Whoa.  Just WHOA.

It took me a little over a year to lose 20 pounds.  My meeting fan wanted me to point out that to our Saturday morning meeting, but I'll share that here.  Just more proof that you should never ever give up.  No matter how frustrating it can get.

I still can't believe what the last year has been like.

Lots of great things happened.  It's been a whirlwind.  I'm sitting here, just being so grateful for how lucky I am.  I hope you guys reading can get to this place too, because it truly is magical.

And when you've lost a lot of weight, you can appreciate what it took to get to this point.  To this place.  And to know that you've worked too hard to ever go back.  I love it.

I don't hate it, and I don't hate myself.  I love it.  I love me.  I've been working at becoming a better version of me my whole life, and this is just the first, albeit small, step.

And just because I can, I'm posting this pic I took 2 nights ago at my Bootcamp.


Please excuse the deer in headlights, post-crazy intense workout look.  Blood, sweat, & tears went into those shoulder and arm muscles.

That girl is a long way from her before.  That girl above knows way a lot more now, and can appreciate the ups and downs (there were many of both, trust me) of this crazy journey.

That girl above kept going, kept trudging along, even though it got beyond frustrating when the scale wouldn't listen to what I wanted it to do.  The girl above knew and had faith that eventually, she'd get there.

That's what I'd like to leave you with today.  Just keep going.  And trust the process.  And also know that the closer you get, the more you will have to change things up.   I was resistant to change too, but I did it because I knew it was the only way to get to goal.

The girl above embraces change now.  More than ever.  I hope you will too.

Jeanette, I'm so glad to hear you're back on the mend!  xoxo

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Updated Results.

So my trainer took another set of measurements.

Here are the results.

In 4 weeks, I have:

Decreased my body fat percentage by 12% (not 12 points, 12%.)

Lost 5 pounds.

Lost 3 inches total from my body.  An inch and a half of that from my waist alone.  He took measurements of my hips, left thigh, and left arm/bicep.  Those shrunk somewhat as well.

Still not entirely sure what or how I did it.  Karen, it was not from keeping bad things in my house, ok?  We all know eating well is about 80% of weight loss, after all.  :-)

I'm going to enjoy this moment for a minute, and then continue to do what I'm doing because it seems to be working.  And if it ain't broke, don't fix it.

Talk about a NSV.  Trainer said my workout outfit, was sexy as hell.  It was the outfit I modeled during the Fitbloggin fashion show.  Flattery goes a long way, especially when receiving such compliments are still pretty new to you.

Keep going, keep trucking.

Monday, January 13, 2014

Bootcamp Fat Loss Challenge Results.

First, I bring you this photo comparison side by side.


Pic on the left is from exactly 4 weeks ago.  The one on the right is from today.

Other than the hair, I can see a bit of a difference.   Especially in my waist.

Don't get me started on the hips.  They are the hardest to shred lately.

In the 4 weeks I did my Bootcamp's challenge, I lost 5 pounds, 1.5 inches off my waist, and a couple of points of body fat percentage.  I don't remember the exact number, but I'll look it up again when I go on Weds.

Thanks to the Redneck for doing the composite.

Next Monday, my trainer will take measurements of my waist, bicep, and hips.  I'll post them here when I know the numbers.

I'm not entirely sure what I'm doing, but whatever it is, I'm doing it right, apparently.  Rebel Without a Clue?  That's how I'm feeling about it.

Either that or I just got pretty damn lucky.

I'd like to think that I'm starting to get the hang of intuitive eating.  I'd like to think that but I don't know how true that theory is.  In any case, I know I'm being more thoughtful about what I'm putting into my body (excluding last week) and I'm still tracking everything.  I think it's the tracking that's helping me.

Over all, a pretty good Monday.  And Mondays always suck!  Hehe.

Until next time.

Saturday, January 11, 2014

The Dress.

Remember the Rachel Roy dress that was at my photo shoot?

The one I loved, the one that fit me like a glove?

The one the shoot director said no to my wearing it because it was too similar to what the Success Story who was photographed before me had worn for her spread?

I found it.  On Amazon.  For about $150 less retail price.

I snatched it up before I could change my mind.

I didn't care about how much it cost.  I wanted it.

I wanted to wear it.  Because it's beautiful and it fit me like a glove.  My body it fit like a glove.  The body I've worked my ass off to get.  Yeah, I was getting it.  I've earned it.

And this week, it arrived!!!!


I very rarely post a side profile pic, and I'm not sure why that is.  So here you go, what it looks like from the side.


I'll be wearing this for my TV appearance because I absolutely love it.  (More on TV appearance later. It's happening next month. Squeal!)

Oh, and I went to Weight Watchers this morning and weighed in.


Down a pound.  I have to say, this really surprised me.  This week  was a bad week, and I found myself mindlessly reaching for all the things, but apparently it didn't matter?  I'm not sure what happened there.  I lost weight and only tried 3 days this week.  I shouldn't have halfassed it.  Should've just tried the whole time, but there you go.

A bloggy friend sent me the digital version to my magazine spread.  If you haven't read it yet, here it is for your reading pleasure.


Still weighing in every week, still doing well, even when I go through stressful weeks.  Maybe I've learned something along this crazy journey of mine without knowing it.  Maybe I've learned that I'm human and I cannot nor will I ever be perfect.  About my eating.  About my attitude.  About anything.

But I do my best every single day.  And I've learned that doing my best every single day, not giving up, is what's gotten me here.

And I'm ok with that.  More than ok.

And that is some learning lesson, wouldn't you say?

Friday, January 10, 2014

Newsday article.

Hey people!

For those of you who wanted to read my Newsday article but weren't able to, here's the link!

http://www.newsday.com/news/health/dropping-pounds-kelly-espitia-1.6682028

Happy Friday.

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Paleo Ranks Last?

A blogger friend, Shannon, posted this CNN article on their diet lists of 2013.  I linked to it on my Facebook account.

Apparently, Paleo ranked last on this particular list.

I know everyone is different, everyone's body is different, and we are all entitled to our opinions.  I can only say that Paleo helped me get to goal after sitting at a very stubborn plateau that did NOT want to see itself out.

As it is, I follow a more "Primal" way of eating now.  I do have a tiny bit of dairy (half-n-half in my morning cafecito.) I'm using quotation marks since I've found that I dislike labels.  My way of eating works for me.

It's helping me maintain my weight loss.  So all I can say is that it has worked and continues to work for me.

Your way of eating works for you.  And that's ok.  No really, it's ok!  Just like people dress differently, different people eat differently.  Honestly.

I don't have a problem with eating differently.

Read the article, and tell me your thoughts.

Thanks for the shout out, Jeanette!  Feel better soon.  xoxo

Sunday, January 5, 2014

First 2014 WI.

Yesterday morning, I walked into my WW center and promptly saw this on the bulletin board.



One of the receptionists had tacked on my Newsday article next to my magazine spread!

How sweet, right?

And the first weigh in of 2014.




Whoa there!  Let's not get too crazy with the 1.6 lbs gain!

Eh, whatever.  Normal fluctuation.  I'm sure it's got nothing to do with the impromptu birthday celebration at my brother's house on Weds. (Insert sarcasm here.)

No big deal, it is what it is.

Karen, I spoke up at my meeting!  Well technically, I was forced to and put on the spot by not only my leader Elyse but my "fan," Wendy.  (Not to be confused with BFF, this is a different Wendy.)  And when I say I was forced to speak up, I really mean that they truly want to hear from me.  Especially since Saturday marked the 6-month mark of hitting my "goal-iversary!"

I was grabbing my wallet to get coffee next door and Wendy was on her way to WI.  I wished her luck, and she grabbed me and said loudly, "Don't act like you're leaving now!  We all want to hear from you!    We want to know what it takes to be successful at losing weight!  Did you know she was in Newsday this week?"

Oh my.  Red face.

"Don't act embarrassed!  Tell everyone how much you've lost!"

Whoa.  So I did.  I wanted to take off running to get my cafecito.

"I love this girl!  She's so humble, even with the magazine, the newspaper - I wanna be you when I grow up!"

LOL.  It's coming from a good place, and she is nothing but nice, truly.  I am  just way more reserved and shy.  Yes, I'm shy, says the person with the public blog & magazine spread/newspaper article.  I am also noting the irony behind that.  Mkay?  I guess I'm just not as outgoing?

So I shared some stuff in the meeting (seriously Karen, you would've been so proud) and then it was time for me to take off for Bootcamp.  Another killer session, what else is new?

And - look what I finally got around to doing!

I got my magazine spread framed!

Happy Birthday to me!

Now I need to figure out a spot to hang it.

Happy Sunday evening!

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Updates & a Farewell to 2013.

Goodbye, 2013.

I'm not sorry to see you go.  You were great, you were heartbreaking, you were thrilling, you were crushing, you were challenging, you were momentous.

Y ahora, eres parte del pasado que no quiero volver a ver.

Yesterday morning, I was alerted by a blog reader on Facebook that my article in Newsday was out!  Would've been nice if someone from the paper had given me a heads up about it, but eh.

Anywho, here's a pic of what it looks like.

And a scanned copy if any of you are interested in reading it.


When I walked into the Boss's office yesterday, he said to me, "So you're famous!!"  LOL.  I told him I had to find out about it on Facebook.  He seemed surprised that the newspaper ppl didn't advise me when it was going to run.  But no worries.  As soon as I knew about it, I went to the supermarket & bought like 5 copies of it.

I also finally got around to getting my magazine spread framed.  I pick it up on Saturday, and I can't wait!  Happy Birthday to me!!!

It's my birthday today, and I headed over to my brother's house for a quick visit.  When I got there, my SIL said she hoped I didn't have any plans, because they had ordered food and the kids wanted to have a little party for me.  How sweet, right?

Since I love hanging out with the kids, how could I refuse?  My brother & SIL gave me a Samsung tablet.  I'll hook it up later and tool around with it.  Happy Kelly.

They ordered lasagna from a local Italian place, and they also had snacks, salads & fresh fruit out.  My SIL also had these kale/spinach balls from Trader Joe's, and they were delicious!  I had never had them before, but I'll be picking them up my next trip there.

2013 was a bittersweet year.  I learned a lot, did some really great things, and because of the good & bad things that happened, a lady at my WW meeting is under the illusion that I possess all this knowledge about losing weight.  The same lady who wants me to speak up more.  Which really surprises me, because I still struggle from time to time.  I don't know everything, never claimed to know everything, and I'm always pretty quiet in my meetings. She sent me a message on FB the day Newsday came out, and after she jetted to the store to pick up a copy, she said she was telling another of her friends about me, another member, and this is what her friend told her.

"She so much to share after being able to do this, why doesn't she share with all of us at WW, I'd love to learn from her."

That made me smile, and it was incredible sweet of her to say.

I get it, you want me to talk more.  I don't know what I could contribute tho.  I think Elyse, our leader, does a fantastic job at leading my meeting.  But in the spirit of sharing, here are some of the important things I've learned along this crazy journey.

1.  Put yourself first.  Really, you & your needs matter.  And they should matter to other people.

2.  Track Track Track your food.  I can't stress that enough.

3.  Be as consistent as possible, and go to meetings.  It's not about perfection, it's not about being militant, but it is about being disciplined enough to recognize when you're overdoing it.

Ok, Wendy?  :-)

Here's to a great 2014 for all of us.  I have high hopes!