Thursday, February 27, 2014

Happy 6-Month Lifetime-aversary to Me!

August 24, 2013 was the day I hit Lifetime at Weight Watchers.  That's a huge deal for me, and anyone who manages to make Lifetime.  It means I was able to maintain a healthy weight range for 6 consecutive weeks.

And it is the first step for paving the road to ongoing maintenance.

So imagine my surprise when February 24 came & went, the 6-month mark since hitting Lifetime!  Again, another huge deal, a milestone passed and I didn't even notice.  Until last night when I was going over my WW stuff online.

Sarah said my not noticing was rather telling, since it signifies I'm "living" maintenance instead of obsessing over it.   Some days are better than others, and I've written about that before.  Some days are just effortless, and I'm concentrating on other aspects of my life instead of food/meals/food prep, etc.

And some days just suck.  Period.  I'd like to think at some point I'll find that nice equal balance, but I'm not quite there yet.

I'd like to think that one day I won't equate having a piece of cake with emotional eating.  Or that I will no longer say, "I was bad this weekend and had some chips at a party."  Some day I'd like to no longer carry the guilt of eating something that I normally wouldn't have.

I'd love to get to a peaceful place with food one day, and realize 100% that it only has the power I choose to give it, that I am the one in control.   Some days, I am completely on point, and then some days I'm on the other side of the spectrum.

It is unhealthy to think of food that way, I know it is, and it is something I work on daily.

Jeanette - you are not the only one who obsesses over being in maintenance.  The other side of weight loss has a lot of upsides to it, don't get me wrong.  I love being an "after" and a successful "loser" but man, does it take work!

And it is absolutely worth it.  You know why?  Because I'm worth it, dang it, and I'm only just scratching the surface on my self-worth.  (Sad, I know.)

If you learn anything at all from your own weight loss journeys, please know that where ever you are, weight loss is NEVER linear.  Maintenance is NEVER linear.  And no matter what you're feeling, you're never alone.  Ever.

Even Karen told me that she fluctuates a few pounds here and there depending on the time of the year, whether it's winter or summer.  And Karen is a wise lady who knows her stuff.  Hey Karen, please tell me the secret of your constant positivity?  Please?  And then send some my way.  I generally try to be as positive as possible as much as possible, but I am human.  And if I only wrote about sunshine, rainbows & unicorns, you guys would see right through it.

Yes, I am blessed.  Yes, I am lucky.  Yes, I have worked my tail off to get the body and the health that I deserve.  And yes, there's still a whole lot I have to work on.

There's always room for improvement.

Here's hoping the next 6 months sees more positive changes.

Sunday, February 23, 2014

A Break From the Scale & Books I've Read.

I had half my post written before Blogger decided to crap out on me and eat the thing. Gah!

Basically I'm leaning towards weighing in only once a month at WW.  I've found that when I don't stress about the scale, I lose inches like crazy.  In the last year since I've been at Bootcamp, I've lost only about 15-20 pounds (more like 15), but I've dropped 2 dress sizes.  And the inches continue to melt off me, which I absolutely love!  However, the scale hasn't moved much.  If at all.

And you know what?  I'm grudgingly coming to terms with that.  I'm reluctantly accepting that it is possible to weigh 144 or so and still be tiny.  See the example of my friend Jenny not seeing me for 2 weeks and then commenting how she thought I had lost so much weight in that short span of time.

Yes, Jenny really did say that.  Hadn't seen her in almost 2 weeks, and then she made that sweet comment.

No WI at WW this week.  I did go to my meeting since I absolutely love my leader Elyse.  She's just awesome.

So that's where I'm at.  I reserve the right to change my mind, as always.  Maybe I'll step on the scale next week.  Or the week after.  I will say that I won't stay away from it for too long, since I know how crucial this first year of maintenance is.

This week, I've gotten back to reading.  I finished Day by Elie Wiesel (my goodness, I do love me some Wiesel), Love & Other Four-Letter Words by Carolyn Mackler, and Homeless Bird by Gloria Whelan.  Loved them all, with Day being my favorite of the three.

I tweeted a particular quote from Day, which was this:

"Man is only alive when he is in the presence of a woman he loves or should love."

I thought it was moving.  Especially since Wiesel is NOT known for being a sappy writer.

And then someone tweeted back how they liked the sentiment, but being alone can also be ok.  This could also work for man loving man, etc.

My reaction:  Major eyeroll.   Talk about missing the point.  Anyone wanting to go head to head with an Auschwitz survivor and one of the greatest literary minds who's ever put pen to paper - good luck.

But to each his own.

Anyone else experience this great weather that I did this weekend?  It was actually in the 50s here, and it was so lovely!  Unfortunately, it won't last.  We are supposed to get more snow tonight, just a coating, and yet another storm on Weds, I believe.

I am not entirely sure what we did to piss off Mother Nature, but it must've been a doozy.  Even if we don't get a lot of snow, the temperatures will be frigid.

I'm moving to Hawaii.  Who's coming with me?

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

The Winter That Will NEVER End, Valentine's Day & WI.

If you live in the Northeast like me, you're probably feeling as if you're living life in one big, constant blizzard.  It feels as if we've had a major blizzard every week/10 days.

Had enough of it yet?  Because I know I have.

I think I have that seasonal disorder.  I'm definitely happier when the weather is nicer.   I feel better when the temperature is above freezing, which, with the consecutive blizzards we've had in this winter that will never end, has not happened very often.

Yeah, I know this is winter, but at this point, it feels like winter has lasted years instead of a few months.

I was up at WI this week.  I blame the weather.


I'm not freaking out about it, as this week has been the exception, not the rule.   Work was canceled one day because of the 14 inches of snow we got, and being out of my routine makes me nutty.  Or pizza-ey, as the case may be.  Jeanette, I had pizza too this week, and even though I love it, pizza does not love me back.

But I was still able to enjoy an occasional treat while being able to appreciate how far I've come.  One of my favorite moments this week was wearing those size 4 trousers to work.


I think I have to accept - FINALLY accept - that it's possible to weigh more and still be small.  I was thinking the other day that my Bootcamp BFF & I are pretty much the same shape, but I'm a good 12-15 pounds heavier than her.  And yet, we're the same dress size.  Isn't that something.

Did you guys have a nice Valentine's Day?  When you're long distance, you have to wing it, like me & The Redneck.  Here's part of my gift.


Nothing says I love you more than The Foo!  Right?   :-)

The book is still being planned out in my head (hopefully the cobwebs don't take up too much room in there) and will be in the making for a while.  I'm ok with this.

One final thing.  You all know that Dani is one of my best friends and I love her dearly.  She had the wonderful Suzi Storm write a guest post on her blog today.   Go on over and check it out.  I seriously love me some Suzi Storm.  No matter where you are in your weight loss, if you're just starting out, almost there, at goal, or gaining it back, please to go and read it.

Keep fighting the good fight, people.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

The Universe Has Presented Me with An Opportunity.

I love social media.  Truly, I do.  I've met some of my best friends and favorite people via Twitter, Facebook, my blog & Fitbloggin.

Dani has become one of my best friends.  And Carla is one of my favorite ladies/powerhouse blogger ever.

It's through social media that I was presented with an opportunity last week.  Something I used to dream about as a little kid, and something that just happened to literally fall into my lap by sheer happenstance.

"Have you ever considered writing an e-Book about your weight loss journey?"

That is the question that was posed to me.  I was taken aback, understandably so, since I don't consider myself a writer, not even close.  Not to mention that writing a book was something I had ever once considered.

Twain was a writer.  So was Austen.  Ditto John Irving.  I am no where close these literary giants.

I'm not even in the same galaxy.

"But have you thought about how many people you could potentially help?  What if I told you that you inspire me to be a better and healthier version of myself? You have a story, why not write it?"

Me?  Write a book?  I don't know the first thing about doing that.  I wouldn't know what approach to take, how to go about doing this, or where to start or what to even write about, other than my weight loss story.

But you know what?  Know what I really don't want?

Regretting never having taken the opportunity. Regret is one of the worst feelings in the world.  I've had enough of that in my life.

So.  I'm going to take the plunge.  It'll take time, and it'll be hard, but so worth it.  Which parallels my own weight loss transformation.  Funny how that works.



So the process begins.

No looking back now.

Saturday, February 8, 2014

The Chew, a WI, & A Freaking Awesome NSV!

Did you all happen to catch the 7 1/2 seconds I was on camera?  Here's a screen shot.

That's me clapping during one of Carla Hall's many dance breaks in between segments.  She likes to do that & she's a fantastic dancer, too!

It was a great experience, and I enjoyed every single minute of it.  Man, those set lights are hot. I'm really glad my dress was sleeveless.

In case you missed the episode, you can find it online here.

http://abc.go.com/shows/the-chew/episode-guide/season-03/96-cold-weather-cooking

And yeah, I totally felt like a goddess in my dress.  :-)

Oh now about my WI today.

Down 2.2 lbs this week.

I said the weight would come off naturally, and it is.  Even with the snow storms this week, and the out of routine eating, it still came off.

What's my freaking awesome NSV, you ask?  Oh, no big deal.  Just being able to fit into a size FREAKING FOUR!!!!


These are slim, fitted blue capris from The Gap.

Size 4.  I can't believe it.

Full disclosure, I totally cried in the fitting room.

From a 24/26 to a 4.  It took me 6 years to get here, but you know what?

IT WAS WORTH EVERY SINGLE MINUTE.

Whenever people ask me how long it took me to lose my weight and I tell them 6 years and about 4-5 years to get the definition in my arms, they quickly lose interest.   Everyone wants a quick fix these days.  It does not work like that.  It takes time, hard work, and a whole lot of discipline mixed with patience.  There is not time or date stamp for when you get to goal.  It will happen when it happens.

Quick fixes are temporary and the weight will come back if you try them.

Not dealing with your issues will mean the weight will come back.

My issue?  I'm a binge eater.  I fight it every day, and some days are better than others.

I've never admitted that here on my blog, but it is my truth, and I'm not running from it and I won't hide it anymore.

What for?  It's a part of me.  I'm a binge eater.

Last week was a great week.  This week, same thing.  Ditto the week before.

I don't know what this week will bring, but I know I'm a whole lot stronger than I was in 2007.

Want proof?

 Nuff said.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

DVR Alert!

Weds., February 5, The Chew on ABC, 1PM EST.

You'll see me on camera at the tasting table!!

I got the hook up through Weight Watchers, as The Chew has partnered up with WW in search of the next Weight Watchers chef.

I'll post more on my experience tomorrow, but for now, I'll leave you with some pics from today.

On set with Elyse & Wendy, my meeting fan.

At the hair salon in the morning where I got my hair blown out.

The ensemble.

Tune in, and let me know what you guys think!

Sunday, February 2, 2014

Long Highway.

You know, I was thinking the other day about the term "journey" being used for a weight loss transformation.  It certainly has been a journey for me, on a very twisted and long road and long highway.

That's why when last week happened, I made the decision to think about it as pragmatically as possible.  It happened, I was going to hide from it or pat myself on the back about it or "forgive myself," it just was what it was.

It was done, and I was over it.  Onto the next stop of this dang highway/journey.


Nice rebound. Down 3 pounds of the epic 6.  The rest will come off naturally, at its own pace.  So I'm not going to stress about it.

The day after my WI, I went to the early Sunday morning Bootcamp workout where I started to get my head & my crap together.   It's easy to continue the trainwrecking, and much harder to back on track.

See what I'm doing there?  Using the whole means of transportation analogy thing? ;-)

Elyse, my WW leader, had said something in the meeting that I kept with me after I walked out Saturday morning.  If you have a flat tire, you're not going to slash the remaining 3, right?

When I have bad weeks, I have to keep reminding myself of how far I've come.  Because I'm my own worst critic.  Still am, to this day.  The girl who joined Weight Watchers in 2007 is still a part of me, and she never would've believed the me of today was even remotely possible.  But I know the truth, and this is who I am now.


Not photo shopped, not enhanced.  This is the result of straight up, hard work.  Blood, sweat & a whole lot of tears.

Weight training. Day 1.  You'll thank me later, just trust me on that.

P.S.  The one & only Cathe Friedrich commented on that picture on FB, and I almost died!  She's one of my favorite fitness DVD instructors ever, and she rocks!

And inspired by the absolutely lovely Jeanette, who posts these amazing side profile pics, here is something I threw together.


Yes, I know the angles and distance don't compare, but it was the best I could do.

Here's the full body side profile.

I really should take more of these.  I don't know why I don't.

I spent the afternoon at my folks, because my brother paid a surprise visit and he brought my niece & nephew.   Any opportunity to see those kids, I'm there!  I freaking love those kids.

Happy Tia.  :-)

Should be a really great game tonight.  I like watching the commercials, those always seem to be fun.  At halftime, I'll probably take a quick walk since the weather here is actually kind of decent for once.  But snow is headed our way yet again.

Boo.

Don't go apeshizz crazy with game food.  It's just one day, not an all day event!  Enjoy the company, enjoy the game, and don't forget about the Puppy Bowl.

Big announcement coming tomorrow, although if you follow my FB blog page, you already know what it is.  :-)

Happy GameDay - and relish the long highway!