Monday, June 22, 2015

WI & Father's Day.

I'm super nervous about my Mom's procedure this week.  I know this surgery is performed all the time, but this is my mother we're talking about.  And everyone is on edge.  She seems to be handling it well, which is good.  But the three of us, my brother, sister & I, are nervous and anxious as anything.

My appetite has been on & off.  Some days, I could eat anything under the sun, then some days I notice I don't eat anything until later in the day.  No bueno.  At all.  I'll feel better once she is a few days post op, I feel.  We all will.  I just wish the time would go quickly to set my nerves at ease.

Here's how I did at WI Saturday.


Down 2.2 this week, which puts me 0.2 away from goal.  AGAIN.

Normally, I'd be thrilled to see this, but.... well, Mom.  Don't get me wrong  - I'm happy that I'm close to goal again, just wish the timing were different, you know.  The Universe says things other than what I weigh are way more important right now.

Saturday we celebrated Father's Day at Mom & Dad's.  Like any family, we don't always get along, but in the end, we're all we've got and we know that.


Rare pic of all three of us together.  We're hardly all together simultaneously, so we took advantage to snap family pics that day.

Send good thoughts to Mom, please?  I would sooo appreciate it!

Namaste.  :-)

Wednesday, June 17, 2015

WI.

I feel like this blog is getting quite repetitive and boring.  WI results, more news about one of my parents.  Ugh.  Tis life for me right now.

Speaking of WI.

Down. 1.6.

You know, with everything that's been going on, I'll take it.  I haven't had much of an appetite lately, guess I have too many things on my mind.

Mom has surgery next week, and then all 3 of us leave for our trips that were planned, booked and paid for months ago.  My brother flys out 2 days after me, and then my sister leaves a few days after him. Sigh.  The good news is that one of us will always be here.

I feel bad about it, but there's nothing we can do.  She'll be in the best place possible, so all of us are trying to focus on that.  If she's in the hospital, and then goes to rehab straight after, her chances of mucking up her recovery are nil.  I hate to think about it that way, but she is so unbelievably stubborn.

Anywho, that's my life right now.  Good Lord, I sound incredibly sad, and I'm sorry.  Just worried.  It suck having older parents.  Especially stubborn ones.

Monday, June 8, 2015

WI & Weekend.

Hey there!

No sooner do I post last week about my Mom's angiogram, then the aide takes her to the ER because she was experiencing chest pains.  My brother was franticly concerned, understandably, but for some reason, I remained oddly calm about it.  My gut instinct told me it was a direct result of the angiogram, and after speaking with my RN friend, I was convinced it was so.  So they gave her an injection in her right arm for the pain, and she was home in the evening.  With zero chest pains.

Exhale.

Saturday was WI.  I was surprised by the results.


Down 0.6.  I'll take it.

Saturday night, my friend Ginger & I went to Sage General Store for dinner.  We chose that place because it was featured on Diners, Drive-Ins, & Dives, and they have awesome food.  (Think, they put bacon in everything.  Bacon Mac n Cheese, Bacon brownie, etc.)

Ginger was not feeling very photogenic, so no pic of the 2 of us. Boo.  I maintain we both looked great, but she wasn't feeling it.  :-)

Sunday I went to my Mom's, then hit Old Navy.  I was feeling kinda cheesy, and I snapped this pic in the fitting room.

Arms are coming back, been working on getting them back.  In truth, I've been working on just not effing my shiz up, for lack of a better way of saying that.  With everything that's been going on with Mom & Dad, and tension with my brother & sister, there are days when I'm literally taking it minute by minute.  I'm not kidding.  It's been rough.  Oh Lord, it's been rough. On all of us.

In fact, I've been so out of it lately that today I showed up for my doctor's appointment early.  An entire day early.  It was for tomorrow.  I was so mortified and embarrassed by this error I kind of wanted to crawl into a hole when the receptionist told me.  Oh my god.  They were soooo nice about it though.  They agreed to see me after I kept apologizing.    Talk about egg on my face.

And then, when I got home, I parked in the wrong assigned parking spot.  I move my car into the right spot, almost swiping the car next to me.  I didn't hit it, but these examples just go to show where my head is.  If you find it, please let me know.  Yup.

This is a good spot to end this post now before I do something else insanely embarrassing.  Namaste!


Wednesday, June 3, 2015

Angiogram.

So my mother needs to have aortic valve replacement.  Gulp.

Her surgical consult is scheduled for Friday, June 12.  I'm taking her to the appointment.  I have a feeling this surgery won't be happening until July.  And I am hoping it's as minimally invasive as possible.

And she is already saying that she will not go to rehab post-op.  Oh Lord.

This is why she is sooo frustrating.  This is one of many reasons my siblings and I are just so frustrated with her, because she is so difficult and so stubborn.  I know the constant pain she is in has changed her a lot, and she is not the same person she was five years ago.

It's just hard right now.  I'm trying not to be worried, but when I heard the news yesterday, I confess I broke down.  Just a little.  Just a bit.  I'm only human.  So I wiped the tears away, texted some of my friends, and I felt a little better.  Thank goodness for my nursing friend and my physician friends.  They helped put my mind at ease.  Hot yoga last night helped too.

This is why I've realized the importance of my support network.  Even though my friends are not all local, I'm so grateful for my circle of friends who put up with me and my crap.  I don't know what I would do without them now.

Sigh.  Send positive thoughts, please?  And if you know someone who's been through aortic valve replacement, please share your experiences!

Namaste.

Tuesday, June 2, 2015

WI, Weekend & Mom.

Hello there!

First things first, here's how I did Saturday at WI.




Staying within my range, although there has been some fluctuation.  I'm ok with it.

I took a roadtrip to see friends in NJ & PA for the weekend, on a whim, and it was great.  Had a nice time, and it was good to see them & just relax for a bit.

There's been way too much stressing over things out of my control lately, with both my parents.

Speaking of which, Mom had an angiogram today, to see how the valves are functioning.  I don't know when the results will be read, but the next step will be to schedule surgery.  Of course, nothing can happen just yet until those results are read.  I have a pretty good feeling about the outcome of it all, for some reason.  I'm not too worried about it because I firmly believe everything will be fine. :-)

The 3 of you who still read, I thank you!  I know all I've been doing is posting quick updates about my parents, but honestly, they are both our main focus right now.  By our, I mean mine and my brother's and sister's. 

We're all just trying to do the best we can right now.  Older parents can be slightly difficult patients, as I'm sure some of you may know first hand.  All I can do right now is be as positive as possible and believe in the best case scenario.

Hot yoga for me later tonight.  I need the stretching and the stress relief it will undoubtedly bring.

Namaste, people!